i was sad for so long that i forgot what it felt like to be happy,
and dear past self,
it feels so good.
I hadn't laughed in months
I hadn't smiled for real,
I hadn't hardly talked more than a couple words at a time.
Dear past self, finding the right people to surround yourself with is the key to becoming happy again.
I stopped cutting,
and I never thought I would.
The urges came and went and I had thought it would stay like that forever.
but dear past self, you will one day forget that you ever needed pain to feel normal.
I have friends now.
i didn't think it'd happen again since you were separated from anyone you had ever known;
but dear past self, you are surrounded by people, and all you needed to do was to speak up that you felt lonely - even and especially in those crowded rooms.
dear past self, you had been alone for so long that you had become accustomed to the quiet.
dear past self, you didn't need to live in your own silence. listen to the world's noise, and dear past self, please reply.
