Just Wanna Be With You

Chapter 23 - Unmentionable

Dedicated to Snehal Pathak, my best friend. Thanks for letting me borrow your birthdate for Aliya’s wedding. Love you girl.

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-Shruts

Chapter 23 : UNMENTIONABLE

I hate the day, because it lendeth light

To see all things, but not my love to see.

~Edmund Spencer

KAVYA’S POV:

Two weeks had gone since Ahaan had left. Four weeks had passed since we had broken up. The New Year had arrived and didn’t bring anything new but the same old pain for me. Even taking his name these days touched my nerves in such a way I thought they would break. Life had been anything but fine since then. I was a wreck for a whole two weeks till nerve-breaker had left. I used to cry a lot or throw things around. I wanted him back. I wanted to be in his arms. And then after those two weeks when there was no sign of him, I became a zombie. I got up, went to the office, came back, had dinner and cried myself to sleep. That was my daily routine.

I wasn’t interested in anything. A lot had happened in this one month, even though my life went at the most slowest pace. Siddharth was now engaged. He had proposed to Sailee on New Year’s Eve and she had happily accepted. They had had their engagement party two days back. He had hesitated to call me for the party. But I had put up a brave face and faced everyone. I knew I had to do it for Siddharth. 

Rahul’s parents too had found a girl for him. He would be getting married soon. It seemed like everybody was getting on with their lives. Aliya tried to make time for me but after a while I asked her to stop worrying. She of course being my best bud never gave up.

My birthday had passed by too. I didn’t do anything that day but mope over him. I just missed him a lot that day. My birthday reminded me of his and it reminded me of how life had been exceptionally awesome that day and for a week after that. It pained me to think about him. 

Today, exactly a week later, on Valentine’s Day, I was getting ready for Aliya’s engagement party. This day was going to be particularly hard and so I kept myself busy with the party.

It had been Aliya’s idea to get engaged on Valentine’s day since getting married on that day would have been too clichéd. So now they were getting married on the 19th ofFebruary. The party was in Pune. I was staying at my parents’ house. Rohan had popped the question two nights ago.

Both their parents had been more than pleased. They decided to celebrate as soon as they could. So here I was getting dressed. Aliya and Rohan were truly on a whirlwind romance. She was so happy. I thanked God for sending Rohan. At least one of us got what she wanted. I shook my head and decided to stop thinking about Mr. Nerve-Breaker. It was doing me anything but good.

I got into a red and black salwar-kurta which had black embroidery on it. My sister helped me get ready. She got these very pretty dangly earrings for me. I did look a whole better than I did since Mr. Jerk left me. I headed out with my parents and my sister. They hadn’t said much since the whole debacle. My mom knew it would take time for me to be myself. She knew me well. It had been a month now and it was easier to hide the pain. Though that didn’t mean the pain grew any lesser. It always felt like I woke up with greater pain. I missed him terribly and there was no cure for it. If somebody wanted to write a song about my life, Avril Lavigne’s ‘when you are gone’ would perfectly do.

I reached the venue an hour earlier. I helped Aliya get ready and she looked gorgeous. After helping her calm her nerves, I took her downstairs. She made her way up to the stage and I preferred staying down. While they were exchanging rings, I saw Siddharth standing next to me. He had understood me and my anguish. He was like a brother I never had. He put his arm around me and kissed me on my forehead. I smiled at him gratefully. Aliya and he had helped me un-wreck myself after heart-breaker had left. Assuring him that I would be okay, I went up to Aliya and congratulated her.

Aliya-Rohan, Siddharth-Sailee, Rahul and his fiancé, Aarti and I were hanging out at the bar in the hotel. We chatted till late at night. It had been a long time since we had done this. It helped me forget Ahaan for a while. It helped me heal faster. At about two we left the lovebirds alone. Rahul dropped me back home.

As I was about to sleep, my mom entered my room. She sat next to me and I put my head on her shoulder. She hugged me. “Today was beautiful right?” she asked me. I looked up at her and said, “Totally. Aliya looked so beautiful. And Rohan was so romantic when he went down on his knees in front of everybody and put the engagement ring on her finger. They are the cutest couple ever.” My mom nodded her head in agreement.

I found myself smiling genuinely after a very long time. “Ma I think I needed this. I started to mend a bit today.” I added.

 “Knew you would come around sweetheart, sleep well,” she said smiling. She left after a while.

That night after what seemed like ages, I slept without crying.