Forgetting Him

Chapter 6

Next four days, in less than hour my music video is about to release. 

Kung pwede ko lang sana ipa-request na hindi na i-release iyon, pero bawal e. 

It was too damn awkward. Akala ko totoo yung halik but it was all part of the show. Show that meant to let the world know it was a true kiss yet it's not for him. 

Ang sakit isipin na hindi totoo iyon. I'm so hurt. 

"Miss Kylie, malapit na po i-release yung music video niyo po." Sabi ng Youtube account administrator.

Nasa gilid ko siya ngayon. I am freaking right now, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko.

It's either I'll let my music video come out and die because of awkwardness or I'll stop making my Youtube administrator upload it and live happily yet confused.

Nakakaasar. I reached out my phone at the table infront of me. I opened my Twitter account.

2M notifications | 57k messages , yan ang bumungad sa 'kin. I saw my fans tweeting with my music video hashtag named #ITWAMRelease. It was on the #1 Worldwide Trend. And also on the PH trends.

I tweeted,
"A few minutes left, guys! Are you ready?"

In just a few seconds my tweet became 35M retweets, 27M replies, 11M favorites and 32M qoutes.

I checked my notifications..

@ZaneSeigez replied to your tweet.

Namilog ang mata ko sa gulat. I looked at his reply.

@KylieSmith : A few minutes left, guys! Are you ready?
@ZaneSeigez : Do you meant to say that, you are ready to see the kiss? ;)

Ugh! Nagdagsaan ang retweets, favorites, quotes at replies sa 'kanya.

I read his tweet's replies,
@Freyaaaksmith : Oh! Omg! I knew him!! He is the hearthrob of Engineering Department of St. Vairas College, Blue Seigez!! Omg!!
@omykylie : Omygosh!! Really?!! What kiss? Omygosh!!! OMYKYLIE!!
@kykykykyky : KISS?! WHAT? WHO? WHERE? WAAAAH!
@derylie : He is an engineer?! *0*. SEXIEST, HOTTEST ENGINEER IN THE WORLD, ZANE!
@gysmith : OMG! HOW ABOUT BryLie? TToTT. Where is baby Brylle?!!
@erinlyie : Yeah! Where is our Brylle? T0T.

And so on..

Brylle didn't contact me since that Park incident. I don't know where he is.

In a seconds, I saw my video is about to upload..

80%...87%....89%...90%...91%...93%..95%...98%...99%...

No. I swear I'll stop this. Gosh..No.

100% uploaded...

Darn. No. The tweets of my fans says that my music video.is already uploaded.. In a minute, the views went to 100M.

Soon enough, it reached 1.5B. Oh, god. I broke the Vevo Record of Most Viewed Music Video. Gosh!

I felt happy yet confused. Nakita ng buong mundo ang kissing scene. Gosh, no.

I saw tweets coming..

@derylie : OH GOD!!! THE KISS WAS TRUE!!! OMYGOSH! THAT LAD NAMED ZANE IS SO HOT!!
@charyielsmithy : OH GOD! NEW LOVETEAM IS BORN!! #KyAneFTW I LOVE 'EM!!
@Dykyliers : NO! BRYLIE!!
@KyAnePH : KyAne FTW!!
@BryLie : BryLie INFINITY!
@KyAneINT : KyAne FOREVER AND EVER!!!

Soon, they debated about my loveteams. Shit! Ginugulo talaga ako ni Zane! Gosh! I hate him! Yet.. whatever..

Manager Selene entered the room, she come up to me.

"Congrats, Kylie! You'll win the Most Viewed Music Video at the next Vevo Awards, watch out the details." Manager said. She reached out her hand onto mine.

Next thing, I knew she shaked my hands then she got put of the room.

I contacted Brylle. Sobra na akong nag-aalala sa 'kanya. Namamawis na ako kahit mayroong aircon dito.

["The number you have dialed is out of the coverage area.."] The other line said.

Shit! Nasaan na kaya siya? Did I hurt him too much? Damn, nagtanong pa ako. It's freaking obvious.

I dialed his number again..

"Brylle...Babe...sumagot ka naman oh..." I said out of confusion. Lumabas ako ng room, I went outside the Moon Records Building.

Kahit may signal ako, pinipilit kong mas lumaki ng signal bar na iyon. It was only three bars.

Finally, a voice spoke.

["Yes?.."]

Damn. I miss that voice too much.

"Babe, where are you?.." tanong ko. Nakatingin ako sa kawalan.

["I didn't thought that I have a girlfriend? Hahahaha!"] Brylle spoke sa kabilang linya.

I have a feeling that he is drunk somewhere at a certain bar.

"Brylle.. sorry..." I said. Damn. I know a sorry can't undo the actions that have been done.

["The fuck?! Sorry?! You such a crazy girl... I didn't have a girlfriend!"] He said.

Damn! No, Brylle. Sorry. Nangilid ang luha ko sa aking mga mata.

"Brylle naman... Ako ito! This is your crazy girlfriend..huk...Please come back for me.." I said. Lumuha ako. I can't control my tears anymore.

["I don't know how did I fell inlove with a crazy girl..crazy girl who made me want her more.. want her to love even she doesn't love me. I tried to be a perfect man to beat the lad she love. But I can't.."]

No. Not now. Please.

"Brylle, please. Come back be here."

Hindi ko alam pero I want to kill myself. I hurted to much people. I'm such a walking hurting person.

["I can't.. I don't want.. I don't want to be hurt anymore.. I can't let myself die... Not anymore.."]  He said.

It made me cried more. I can't do this to him. I must pick. Pick who matters the best. But I can't. Alam kong mahal ko si Brylle. Pero...

Last thing I knew the call ended. Brylle, sorry.

I felt a shadow infront of me. I turned around.

I saw him...Zane..

He handed his hands into mine.

"What do you want now?! Nakuha mo na ang gusto mo di 'ba? Ang sirain ang relasyon namin? To wreck my carreer?!" sigaw ko sa 'kanya.

Lumapit siya sa 'kin.

"I didn't do anything, Kylie. I'm sorry." He said.

Lumapit siya lalo. I knew he wanted to hug me. But I refused.

Lumayo ako sa 'kanya. Because I freaking heard my own heart beating. Beating louder. Gosh. I can't let this feeling grow anynore just like last time.

"Zane, please layuan mo na ako. Lubayan mo na ako.. Please, I'm okay without you. And I don't need you.. not anymore.." I said. But another tear left my eyes.

Lumayo siya ng bahagya. Lumingon siya sa likod then he turned back to me again. He is crying. Damn! Nakokonsyensya ako.

"O-o-okay.. If that is what you said.. I..I...I'll do it..." His voice cracked. Then he leave me hanging.

I was left hurt. Bakit ako masyadong naapektuhan sa 'kanya? What do he have?

Sino bang mas malamang? I don't know.. It's too hard to chose. I can't let anyone hurt.

I must die dahil ang dami ko ng nasaktan.

I can't chose anyone. I can't... But I must..