Forgetting Him

Chapter 7

The past few days. They're gone at my life. I'm mentally hurt them. At nakokonsyensya ako.

I've been longing for Brylle. Ilang araw akong umiyak. Ilang araw akong nagkaroon ng bloodshot eyes. Nihindi ako lumabas. Nihindi ako pumunta ng practice para sa whatever for media.

I'm feeling lonely this past few days. Umiyak ako. I'm not eating well nor feeling well. I couldn't pick. Ang hirap. I should pick Brylle pero.. Damn! I can't. I don't know why.

I stayed home until now.. Babalik ako sa media kung kailan siya babalik. Hindi ko siya dapat pinagtulukan palayo. Hindi ko dapat ginawa 'yon ang tanga ko.

I am full of shit, I know. Isa akong mapanakit na tao. I should die. Die of shame. I should excecute suicide. But... I wish...I wish... he would come back.

They would come back.. I...But...I don't know what to feel. I should be caring for Brylle not for Zane. But I care for them both, hindi ko alam kung bakit.

Maybe it's true. I can forget him but not the memories we shared. Ang sakit isipin. Pero totoo e.. Wala akong magagawa. All I need is to have an amnesia.

Pero hindi ko pwedeng magawa iyon. I'll lost whatever I have right now. My fans, fame, popularity and carreer that I've ever wanted because of his type of girls.

Pero alam kong niloloko niya lamang ako. He's just jerking around. Messing up with me. Trying to break my heart again. Like what happened.

"Kylie, please..." paki-usap ni Manager sa 'kin. Nasa condo ako ngayon.

I am feeling sick.

"Not until he come back, Manager.." sagot ko kay Manager. And I grabbed my blanket na nasa paanan ko kanina. I wrapped it around my body.

"Why? Kylie? What would you do if he got missing for a week, a month even a year?! Remember your carreer!" tanong ni Manager.

If even an eternity, I'll wait for him.. Whatever it takes I'll do it.

"Oo, Manager if its necessarry. I'll wait him.. I don't care whatever it takes...I just want him to come back for me.." I wholeheartedly replied. I feeling hot.

Sinisipon ako yet naiinitan ako. Ang gulo ng pakiramdam ko. I feel hot yet it's cold because of the rainy season.

"Kylie, you are saying that isasakripisyo mo ang pinaghirapan mo for two years?! Are you crazy?!" sermon sa 'kin ni Manager.

I frowned. Nakakakonsyensya rin kasi. Pero mas kailangan kong piliin siya. I must pick him but..

"Kylie! Pinapahiya mo ang pamilya niyo! Remember your last name, Kylie! You're a Smith! You're such a disgrace to your family! Never nagkaroon ng issue ang mga Smith's! Better keep your family record clean!" sermon muli sa 'kin ni Manager. Tumingala ko sa 'kanya.

"Am I a disgrace? Or my parents is my families' disgrace? They never attended my graduation, my birthdays. Hindi ba disgrace iyon sa nag-iisang anak na babae? Tiiniis ko iyon since birth. Puro sila business, modelings or what. Mahalaga na pala ang ginagawa nila kaysa sa anak nila?" I answered.

Manager gave me a death stare. I just grinned.

"God! Kylie! Anong nang gagawin ko sa 'yo?!"

"Just tell me where the hell is Brylle?" I asked. Napakamot sa ulo si Manager. She sighed.

"We don't know where he is but we hired private investigators to find him. They already have a lead." sagot ni Manager. Kumunot ang noo ko.

Fuck! He's nowhere to found! But...Damn...Where is Zane? Sana hindi ko na lang siya ipinagtabuyan.

I'm satisfied at her answer about Brylle. But..how about...How about Zane?

After taking my meds. I've slept.
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1 AM.

Biglang namulat ang mga mata ko. Ang dilim. Nilibot ko ang aking mga mata sa silid ko. The clock is glimmering at the moonlight. It's already 1AM in the morning.

Kinuha ko ang phone ko sa bed side table.

29 Missed Calls from Alyssa

Shit! Tumawag siya. The last time she called me it was 12:56PM. I hurrily called her. I hope she answers.

"Bes...." I called her.

["Ky-kylie....."] She stuttered at the other line.

"Bes... why did you called? Why are you stuttering? What happened?"

["Si...Zane...nawawala...huk..Hindi ko siya mahanap..."] I can hear her crying while talking.

I just remembered. Siya yung girlfriend ni Zane! Gosh! No!

"Sorry bes, I can't help you with that.. Sorry..." sabi ko sa kabilang linya and I stopped the call.

Mahirap sabihin pero kailangan. Nilapag ko ang phone ko muli sa bedside table. I slept.
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3AM

Naramdaman kong may humihimas sa mukha ko with a warm water in a towel.

Pagmulat ko ay isang blurred vision ang nakita ko. Isang lalaki ang naglalapat ng basang bimpo sa noo ko. He smiled at me. Siguro nga ay panaginip ko lang ito.

Habang natutulog ako ay may parang tumabi sa 'kin sa pagtulog.

"Goodnight, Kylie."

Binalewala ko na lang iyon. Then I fell asleep. And in an hour someone kissed me on the forehead.

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A/N: Sorry, short update :). Sino kaya yun? 0.0