One Direction Preferences

He finds you starve yourself/cut/you're sucidal

HARRY: Before you met Harry, you had a Facebook page about suicide and posted videos of yourself talking about your problems and how no one should go through thinking suicidal of cutting.

"Hey, (Y/N)," Hary said kind of like he was asking a question.

"Hmm?" You ask.

"Well, um a fan sent me- well y a link to you're old facebook page..." He said and you looked at him wide eyed and shocked.

"I thought I deleted that," you whisper.

"Are you still, you know... suicidal?" He asked whispering the last word.

We that you just started crying, because you were... every single day.

"I'm really sorry... I didn't know," He said.

"Its not like it you're fault," you say.

"Then whos fault is it, I want to know," He said hugging you.

"I'ts mine," You say.

"What?" He asked confused.

"It's my fault for believing everything people say, I'm the person who can't take a compliment but believes everything mean people say about me, so It's all my fault for being like this," You say and it was silent, always too silent.

LOUIS: "It's ok, I'm not hungry," You smile, you were starving.

"I highly doubt that," He says quietly.

"What do you mean?" You ask, hoping not to sound worried.

"You think I don't pick up on things like this, you haven't eaten in what 3 days is it now? You think I don't know what you're doing, you act like nothings wrong," He said.

"I'm sorry," You say.

"Don't apologize to me, apologize to yourself you're the one doing this to your body," He said and you mentally apologised to yourself.

"I know... I didn't think you would find out honestly, i just thought you were going to be like everyone else who didn't care, who didn't and still don't know what I was doing, I guess I just it was natural to assume you wouldn't care," You say sadly, you were almost crying but stayed strong, you were pretty much to weak to cry anyways.

NIALL: You were lying in bed thinking weather it would be a good idea tto keep not eating, you were wearing only a sports bra because it was hot summer night.

"Princess?" Niall asked.

"Yea?" You ask.

"When was the last time you ate a proper meal?" He asked.

"Umm," you couldn't remember, thats how long its been, "Why?" You ask.

"I can see you haven't been eating, it doesn't even seem like you weigh anything," He said and poked your stomache.

"I don't know what you do, I mean how do you not eat for that long," He asked.

You were silet for a bit, "You tell yourself how fat and ugly you are every single day, you beleive everything people say, It motivates you into not eating because dets never seem to work," You say truthfully.

"I'm sorry I couldn't help you before it got this bad," He said.

"Its not your fault, you don't have to feel sympathy for me, no one else does either," you whisper almost regretting telling him the last part.

ZAYN: 'Kill yourself, Zayn doesn't want ou anways' 'die whore' 'you don't deserve to live' 'i hope you die'

All you could think of was the hate messages, maybe you shouldn't be here, on the earth. Maybe you should kill yourself. The sad part is this isn't the first time you've been suicidal.

You sent Zayn a text sayging, "See you soon <3" and grabbed abottle of sleeping pills from the cabinet... you opened it and started putting them into your hand; One, two, three, four, five, six, seven... You leaned againt te counter ready to end it all, you heard the doorknob click, you thought about doing it before he could unlock the door, but it was to late, you had accidentally dropped te pills on the floor.

"Hey-... what are you doing?" e asked.

"I was going to take a nap and the sleeping pill spilt on te floor," You lied.

"Wheres the bottle, in the cupboard right?" he asked.

You nod your head.

"You weren't actually going to were you?" he asked... silence, "No, boo why?" He asked.

"Because no one cares,' You said.

"I care, please don't, please, I don't know wat I would tdo witout you." You were trying to keep from crying and you knew if yu opened your mouth you were going to so he just held you in his arms, sitting on the kitchen floor.

LIAM: (I already did a cutting one so thats why I chose to only do one, and I couldn't think of any more for starve/suicidal so yea)

"I found some of your shorts, you told me you didn't have any," Liam laughed.

"I just don't wear them," You said.

"Why not?" he asked. You didn't have an answer.

"Well if you don't have a reason go put them on," he said handing them to you.

He was bound to find out sooner or later, so you took them and went to change, you lookedat the scras on your theighs, and tought of te one on your stomach and te ones trailing up your wrists to your arms, ready you walked downstairs, just to see the suprised look on his face.

"Why?..." He asked trailing off.

"Because," You said.

He walking over to you, "Do you have scars anywhere else?" He asked.

You rolled up your sleves and lifeted up your shirt, e looked at you horrified to se all those scars./

"I- I didn't even know," He said.

"I know you didn't, I was planning to keep it that way," you answered truthfully.

"I wish you wsould ave let me help," he said.

"I wish I knew you when it started..." you trailed off.

soo i hope you like this, im not sure if ive already done this but thiss was dedicated to one of my friend and anyome else who suffer from these things.