One Direction Preferences

Authors Note

In my last preference I explained about my best friend and all. I don't know why but I felt the need to apologize for being a jerk. I don't mind that she doesn't want to apologize to me because I don't want to make her more upset than she already is. I love her, honestly with all my heart. She is my life and I don't know what I would do without her. I know she doesn't read these and more because I'm a huge fuck up. I want her to be happy, and if that means auditioning alone and living her dream by herself... I guess I have to be OK with that because thats what she wants. I screwed up mine and her friendship forever and I know that she is never ever going to want to be friends with me again. Well back to square one. Everyone likes her, because she's amazing :3 but obviously everyone is going to hate me now so I guess I'm back to being nobody's friend. I feel really bad not respecting her desisions but I guess since we both had the same dream to you know, live it together. But I should have just left it alone. I was a jerk, let me rephrase that I am a jerk. Ali if you're reading this can you please tell AJ to read this, because I want to apologize to her. I know she doen't want to talk to me but please? Tell her I responded to her last comment and that I'm sorry.

I love her and I can't explain what would happen if she wasn't my best friend anymore, anyway. I guess she isn't a back stabber. It's just that she decided to go with someone else without talking to me first kinda ticked me off a little. If she wants to then thats her choice not mine. LESSON, DON'T BE A COMPLETE RETARDED, FUCKING JERK TO THE PEOPLE WHO MEAN THE WORLD TO YOU. I GUESS IT WAS WRONG TO POST PERSONAL STUFF SO SHE'S PROBABALY GOING TO BE MAD AT ME FOR THIS TOO. BUT AS LONG AS SHE KNOWS THAT IM SORRY AND WOULD DO ANYTHING IN THE WORLD TO EARN HER TRUST BACK THAN I HAVE TO BE OK RIGHT? YEA :3 LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU INCLUDING MY BEST FRIEND EVEN THOUGH I AM 99.999 PERCENT SURE SHE'S NOT READING THIS <3 HER AND FOR THE RECORD IM A JERK, IM NOT NICE AND IM NOT SWEET IM JUST A HUGE JERK WHO SHOULD LEARN TO RESPECT PEOPLE.

LOVE, YOUR JERK,

JAY <3