Autistic Innocence

Chapter Nineteen

Justin's P.O.V

I kiss the top of Lilly's head gently and stroke the hair away from her face. Her now sleeping body laying comfortably in my bed and I bring the covers over her some more before carefully standing up. I look at the time and see its twelve o'clock, it was later than I thought. I furrow my eyebrows and go over to Cameron and Avalanna's bed. I walk over to Avalanna's side and pull the blankets away from her face gently, my eyebrows furrowed when I notice her tear stained cheeks. I squat down and gently shake her awake. "Avalanna, wake up real quick baby, daddy has to ask you a question." I whispered. She slowly opens her eyes that were slightly red and puffy. "Why are you crying baby girl? Are you okay? Did you have a bad dream?" I ask her as I stroke my thumb over her chubby cheek slowly. She stares into my eyes for a while and I watch them glaze over with brand new tears. "What's the matter sweetheart?" I whisper. She ignores me and turns her body so that now her back was facing me. I was behind confused and after a while, I stand up and pick her up into my arms. I walk into the small living room that was connected with our bedroom since we were in a suit. I sit down on the couch and bring her into my lap, facing me. "Baby, are you mad at me?" I asked her. She nods and rubs her eyes tiredly. "Why?" I ask. "Y-you don't love m-me no more!" Her lip wobbles and she silently cries. My heart completely broke at the sound of that sentence leaving her mouth and the fact that she could even think that. "What? What got that into your head angel? Because I love you so so so much that it hurts. Your my little princess, my baby girl. You're the love of my life and without you I wouldn't have a reason to wake up in the morning." I bring her small body into my chest and feel her tears soak my shirt, but I couldn't care less. My baby was hurting. "N-no I'm not because y-you only love Lilly." She croaks out. Instantly I think back to earlier and how I didn't give her our nightly cuddles. I mentally curse myself as the memories of what I had said to her invade my mind. I hold her tighter to me. "Princess, I am so so sorry. I was so caught up with taking care of Lilly that I forgot to take care of you too and that is not acceptable. I'm really sorry and I hope I can make it up to you baby because I never want to see you hurt. And I especially never want to be the reason why you hurt. You're my daughter and I'm supposed to protect you and right now I'm being a bad daddy and I'm sorry." I whispered against her head. She gasps cutely and looks up at me. "Your not bad daddy! I sorry for hurting you feelings! But I no cry no more! See? I'm all better!" She tries to convince me by putting on a big smile on her face and I can't help but laugh quietly at her cuteness. "Why is it that you try to make me feel better when I'm trying to make you feel better?" I teased her, my eyebrow raised. She giggles and I chuckle and cradle her to me like a baby. "I promise I'll try to do better, just give me some time to adjust to Cameron and Lilly being here be she's this is all new to me, to both of us. But we have two new people in our family and that means two more people to love and two more people that love us, that's good right?" I ask her. She smiles and nods and I smile and bend my head down to kiss her cheek. "Now let's get some sleep because we have a big day tomorrow." I whispered and stand up with her still in my arms and walk back into the bedroom. I set her back down beside the sleeping Cameron and cover her up. "Goodnight baby girl, I'll see you in the morning." I mumble and kiss her head one last time before standing up and going into the restroom. After doing my business, I go to walk out of the restroom and jump when I open the door and Cameron is standing right there. I grab my chest. "Jesus Christ dude, wear a bell!" I whisper yell at him. He laughs quietly, his face slightly scrunching up. "My bad.. I just wanted to tell you. Me and Lilly have two new people to call family our family too, and two more people to love and two more people that love us, that's good right?" He smiles a small, crooked smile at me before going back to the bed without another word. I don't know if it was because I was feeling sleep deprived or because it was kind of late and my mind couldn't process anything at that moment but what Cameron told me made me think, and after a while my brain finally processed what he had said and that he was actually accepting us as his and Lilly's new family.

Leaving me with a small smile on my face and a good feeling in my heart...