My Missing Piece (A Mavin Fan Fiction)

I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

Geoff left a while ago. He wanted to make sure I was okay. He did say he was going to have a talk with Gavin and I tried to talk him out of it. It was morning now. I haven't even changed out of my clothes. I was just sitting on the couch pointlessly looking at the black television screen. I think I fell asleep at some point last night. I rolled off the couch and into my bedroom. It looked so empty without Gavin. I shrugged that thought away and changed into a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. I walked into the bathroom and wrapped gauze around my wrists. I slashed some water on my face and put in my contacts. I didn't feel like eating so I just put on my jacket and checked the time, eight-thirty. I put my wallet into my back pocket and put on my shoes. I snatched my phone off the back of the couch. I went to grab the keys off the hook, but remembered I drove the group to the bar so Lindsay probably had my car. You could use a walk. You're getting fat. I sighed and stepped out the door, locking it, and heading off towards the office.

I was not excited when I saw the office building. I knew I had to face everyone after last night happened. I probably looked like shit, to top it off. Why didn't I just stay home? I pushed open the main doors and immediately felt depressed again. I walked straight towards the Achievement Hunter office, not looking away from my shoes. I was late since I had to walk all the way here. No one said a thing to me when I sat down for at least five minutes. I could feel Gavin's eyes on me. "We're doing a Things To Do today guys." I loaded up my computers and such. Geoff told us what to do and everyone started. We spent a couple hours trying to beat it, but Jeremy ended up winning. We filmed another video before Geoff let us all go for lunch. I didn't feel like eating so I stayed in the office and played whatever games were on my Xbox. It started it get really hot in the room while everyone was out. Jack was the first one to come back. "Oh wow it's hot in here," Jack stated the obvious. I just nodded. He took off his jacket, but I still broiled in mine. "You can take off your jacket, Michael. I'm sure you're dying under there," Jack said, sitting down at his desk. I just shrugged.

Ryan and Jeremy were the next ones to walk in. They were talking about how the air conditioning broke. That explained the heat. They weren't wearing their jackets either. I started sweating and knew if I didn't take my jacket off I might have a heat stroke or something. I took mine off, hoping no one noticed my arms. Thankfully, no one did. Geoff was the next one to come back in. "Hey g- Michael, what happened to your arms?" I hid my arms and tried to ignore him. "Let me see," Geoff walked right up behind me and reached for my arm. I jerked it away from him and started for the door. He grabbed my wrist and made me wince. "Geoff I-" I stopped mid-sentence as he started to unwrap the gauze. I didn't try and pull away because I knew he would just stop me again. He completely unwrapped the bloody gauze and stared at my arms. He couldn't muster up words. I heard one of the other guys start to speak and I darted out the door. I started to run, but ran into someone and made us both fall. "I'm so sorry," I apologized and got off them and saw that it was Gavin. I went to run off, but he pulled me into a tight hug. I didn't have the strength to push him off me. I didn't even have the strength to start crying. "Let's go home," Gavin's voice made me happier. I was still mad at him, but maybe it wasn't his fault.

Gavin stood up and helped me up. He put my arm around his shoulder and his arm around my waist. He nodded to Geoff and walked me out of the building. We walked back home in silence. Gavin unlocked the front door and opened it, but kept his arm around me. He shut the door with his foot and walked me over to the couch. He took my hands in his. "Micoo, I'm so bloody sorry. Please let me explain," he looked so beaten down. I just nodded and didn't take my eyes off him. "Meg, she pulled me off to wish me happy birthday and was just going to give me a gift. She dragged me to the bathroom even though I told her to stop. She threw me on the ground and made me. Nothing happened I promise. I wouldn't let her do that," he explained. I believed him, every word he said. Gavin started to tear up and that was when I learned something. He was as broken as I was. The sight of him crying made me cry. I laid down in his lap and he draped an arm around me. I felt his hands snake down to mine and he lifted them into his view. "How come you did this?" He asked with a quivering voice. "Because I didn't want to be without you." My answer was flat and simple. Gavin brought my arms up more and kissed each wrist. "I love you so bloody much, Micoo." "I love you so fucking much more, Gavin."