My Missing Piece (A Mavin Fan Fiction)

Don't Let Me Go

I woke up to the annoying sound of my alarm clock going off. I reached over and turned it off, grabbing my glasses and putting them on. I looked to my right to see Gavin sound asleep. I smiled and decided to let him sleep in a bit. I pushed myself out of the bed and quietly grabbed clothes. I jumped in the shower and did my morning routine. After I was done, I walked into the kitchen and made Gavin and I some scrambled eggs and bacon. I put the food on plates when it was done cooking. I walked back into the bedroom and I was surprised that Gavin wasn't awake yet. I smirked and bent down to kiss his nose. When that didn't wake him, I pressed my lips against his. My smirk grew when I felt him deepen the kiss. We both pulled away after a few minutes and I stood up. "G'Morning sleeping beauty. I made breakfast." I said as I kissed his big nose again.

Gavin and I walked into the dining room, hand in hand, and sat down at the table. We both dug into our food  and talked about yesterday. When we finished eating, I washed off the plates and stuck them in the dishwasher. Gavin went into the bathroom to get ready and I put on my shoes. I walked into the bedroom and tried to fix up my hair. I was greeted with a pair of arms being wrapped around my waist and a chin resting itself on my shoulder. I smiled and turned myself around in his arms. Gavin had a big smile on his face as he leaned his head down and pressed his lips against mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back. We lost track of time as I ended up pushing Gavin against the wall and kissed him passionately. My phone went off and we both groaned. I pulled away and picked it up off of the dresser. Geoff had texted me telling me I better get to work. I stuffed my phone in my pocket and looked back at Gavin. "We gotta go to work or Geoff's gonna have our heads." I rolled my eyes and Gavin gave me a playful frown as followed me out to my car.

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"Oh shit! Geoff, look out!" I screamed into the microphone. We were playing Grand Theft Auto V for a Let's Play. Geoff and I were teamed up against Gavin and Ryan. Ryan somehow got his hands on a grenade and was now throwing it at Geoff. "OH FUCK!" Geoff screamed as his character flew into the air and the word "wasted" came up on his screen. Gavin and Ryan started laughing manically while I open-fired on them. I ended up killing Gavin right before Ryan pulled out a shotgun on me. "Rye-bread, DON-" Ryan hit the right trigger on the controller and my character fell to the ground. We all started laughing and yelled "Let's Stop!" into our microphones. "Don't we have a Versus to film too?" Ryan peeked his head above his monitors to ask Geoff, who had his hand on the door. Geoff turned to look at him and then at the board on the back wall. "Oh dicks, I forgot about that." I turned towards Geoff with a "puppy-dog" look, "Lunch first?" Geoff chuckled and nodded. "How about we have an Achievement Hunter lunch on me?" The office cheered as we all followed Geoff out to our cars.

Ryan, Jack, Lindsay, and some new employee rode with Geoff. Gavin, Joel, Adam, Barbara, and I all took my car. We all met up at some fancy, but reservationless, restaurant nearby. I parked my car next to Geoff's and everyone got out. I walked towards the back of my car and Gavin placed his hand in mine. I smiled and we all started walking to the restaurant's entrance. The lady at the front door asked us how many we had. Geoff looked behind him at all of us and started counting, "Ten." The lady looked tired as she grabbed ten menus and led us to one of the bigger tables in the back.

We all ordered our drinks and started up a conversation. Gavin started talking to the new employee. He introduced her to everyone she didn't know at the table. She smiled and waved at everyone. I had to admit, she was pretty. She had purplish colored hair and wore purple glasses. I think her name was Meg. I could feel my depression coming back and I tried to shove it away. Gavin started to say something to me, but I didn't hear him. I just nodded and excused myself the the restroom. I pushed my chair back and walked towards the abandoned hallway and into the men's room. I ignored all the odd looks that I could feel I was getting.

When I pushed open the door, I immediately walked over to the sink. I turned on the faucet and let the water get cold. I leaned my head down and placed my glasses on the counter. I stuck my hands under the running water and splashed it on my face. After a few times of doing that, I grabbed a towel and dried off my face and stuck my glasses back on. I stepped back and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like shit and my hair was a curly mess. I honestly wouldn't be surprised if Gavin left me for that Meg chick. You're jealous. No I'm not. Yes you are. That's why you're in here. Shut the hell up, I am not jealous. I ran my hand through my hair and walked back out of the bathroom and towards the table. Gavin had his chair moved closer to Meg's and he had his arm rested on her shoulder and was looking at something on her phone.

I could feel my depression worsen. Every bone in my body ached now. I wasn't mad at Gavin, I wasn't jealous. I was just a selfish prick and I needed a way to stop it. I pinched my left wrist to stop the thoughts and sat back down next to Gavin. Geoff gave a concerned look, but I shrugged it off. I looked down at the small red dots beginning to form over my scars from the pinching. Lindsay, who was sitting on the left of me, leaned towards me. "You okay Michael?" She was the only person, other than Gavin, who knew about my depression. I looked up at her and smiled, "Just peachy." She gave me a reassuring smile and sat upright in her chair. The waitress stepped up beside Barbara and Lindsay and began taking everyone's orders. I just decided to stick with my Coke and not get anything to eat. Gavin took note of this and places his hand on my thigh. I jumped at his touch. Stop acting like an attention-seeking asshole, Michael. Gavin moved his hand from my thigh and placed it in my hand. He squeezed my hand and kissed my cheek. I could hear Barbara whisper "Awww."

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After lunch, we all drove back to the office. Geoff had us film the Versus. It was Ryan against Gavin. I didn't pay much attention to the game, nor to who was winning. We ended up finishing around seven. Gavin and I didn't have anything to edit today so we packed up and told Geoff we were leaving. He waved us off and we got back into my car. I turned up the radio after pulling onto the road. Some random song started playing, but it was enough to cover my thoughts. Gavin turned off the radio once that song finished. I immediately knew he wanted to talk. I, however, did no want to talk. "Micool, what's wrong?" Gavin gave me a concerned look when I glanced at him. I put on a fake smile, "Just a little tired is all." Gavin nodded. He seemed to have believed that, but I wasn't counting on him to forever.

I pulled the car into our driveway and we both got out. I locked the car before unlocking the front door. I let Gavin in ahead of me. I tossed the keys on the counter and took off my shoes, leaving my jacket on. Gavin moved into the kitchen while I made my way into the bathroom. I closed the door and started to search through the cabinets. I knew what I was looking for. I picked through the medicine cabinet and looked under the gauze pads. There it was. The small silver rectangle that I kept as a backup. I picked it up and shut the medicine cabinet. I'll have to hide it in a better place later. I held my wrist over the sink and rolled up my sleeve. The blade was cold against my skin, but I could feel the pain oozing out with the blood that dropped into the sink. Only a couple since you're really just overreacting, Michael.

I chuckled to myself as my eyes started to water. I let the tears fall and continued to pull the sharp object across my skin. I didn't realize how bad it was getting until I looked down. My arm was covered with blood that was dripping into the sink. You overdid it you selfish bastard. I felt my vision get blurry and heard a knock at the door. "Micool. Are you alright in there?" I blinked a couple of times. "Gavin." My eyes started to get heavy and I let them close. I could feel myself hit the bathroom floor before the door flung open. I could faintly hear Gavin scream my name before he picked my head up. I could hear him dialing a number on his phone and I assumed it was 911. "Micool don't you leave me." Gavin let out. I could tell he was crying. What have you done, Michael? He started to yell at the operator on the other line out of panic. He eventually hung up and I blinked my eyes open. "I love you," was all I said before everything just became a big, dark, distant event.

I could heat Gavin apologizing, crying, and telling me he loved me. You really fucked up, Michael. I could hear sirens in the distance and then men rushing into the bathroom. I felt my body get lifted off of Gavin's lap and placed on a stretcher. I hated hospitals. Gavin kept our hands intertwined the entire ride. I couldn't hear a word that he was saying. I couldn't even hear the paramedics asking questions. I had my eyes open and I could see the abulance. I've only been in one once before. That was when I was thirteen-years-old and got knocked out and had to get stitches because my dad hit me with a beer bottle. I saw one paramedic shine a light into both of my eyes. I didn't react to it. Then I felt the ambulance stop and I was suddenly being rushed out of the ambulance and into the brightly lit Emergency Room.