There's No Editing THIS Love! [COMPLETED]

20. Guilty

Detective Muñoz walks towards the other officers. You look at the white sheet and continue crying.

I never meant for this to happen! Why did you have to do something so stupid, John? Just because I didn't love you romantically doesn't mean I didn't love you. You were like a brother to me, but now I'm back to being an only child...

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Max rests his hands on your shoulders and continues attempting to comfort you. Nothing works. You can't help but feel guilty. If only, as you stare at his nicely dressed, pale body, John would open his eyes and shout, "Fooled ya!" But now here you are, all dressed in black, looking at your deceased ex best friend.

"It's all my fault," you sob out quietly again. Max squeezes your shoulders. "No it's not," he protests, "John made his own decision. You did nothing wrong."

"I fueled the fire, Max. He was upset and I yelled at him. I'm such a bad friend..."

The coffin is finally lowered into the grave and John's parents watch with nothing but grief and pain in their eyes.

Johnathan Bruce Castillo
September 22nd, XXXX
September 12th, XXXX
Son, Best Friend, YouTuber

Once all the dirt is covering the gray coffin, everyone leaves. You kneel down in front of the tombstone and continue sobbing. You've cried more this past month than all nineteen years of your life combined.

Max whispers lots of sweet nothings into your ear but still nothing works.

Guilt just knows how to consume.

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Max starts the car and you look out the passenger window.

"Do you want something to eat?" He asks.

You shake your head. "No, I'm fine. Can you take me back to my apartment?"

"Sure."

(A.N. Sorry for the really short chapter. I'm really excited for tomorrow! Uploads start tomorrow on Max's channel! Monday, May 30th, 2016 is a day to always be remembered by Mithzan fans!)