There's No Editing THIS Love! [COMPLETED]

21. Apologizing To The Spades

September 13th, 7:46 p.m. One day John has been gone. You sit on the couch, clutching a pillow to you chest. You can't stop thinking about John. The tears may have stopped, but the thoughts haven't.

I shouldn't have left him at the club that night. I should have stayed with him so we could talk about it and find a better solution. Or at least the next day when he wasn't drunk anymore. We should have talked but instead we yelled. Why did I do that? What's wrong with me? John was right. All he did was confess his feelings and I yelled at him. And now he's dead...

You unlock your phone screen and go to the contacts, tapping on a number you've never used before.

"H-Hello?"

"Hi, Mrs. Castillo. It's (Y/N). I know you might not want to talk to me, but I have one small request."

"...Go ahead."

"Can I take over John's YouTube channel? I won't delete any of his content, but I'll fix the video I screwed up, and make a video to announce his passing. I'll apologize to his entire fandom for my mistake and I'll make more content for the channel all in his honor. That way even though John is gone, his channel isn't. I'll rename it to make it more of a collaboration but it will still be John's channel. I'll make sure to get all the subscribers he lost back. What do you think, Mrs. Castillo?"

"I love that idea, (Y/N). You may take over his channel. Please make it better than ever."

"I will. I promise. Thank you so much."

John's mom hangs up and you smile a little to yourself. You get up and walk over to your office, sitting in your office chair and turning on the monitor. I regret deleting all evidence of John now.

You log onto John's channel and look at all the notifications. There's a butt load of hate. You spend a few hours fixing the Saltine Cracker video, creating a new profile and cover photo for the channel, and getting yourself prepped up to do the video acknowledging John's death.

You push your hair behind the shoulders of your black shirt and fix the camera, finally pressing record.

"Good evening, Spade Nation," you say to the camera. "My name is (Y/N). You all don't know me, but I was John's editor. I'm the one who made all the content on this channel look nice. And yes, I am also the one who edited the cracker video to make it seem like John was an asshole. I fixed it and changed it back to how it's supposed to be so you can go enjoy that now. The reason I am here, though, is not for me. I'm here for John. I regret to inform you all that King Spade is dead. He committed suicide yesterday in his apartment. It's a very traumatizing thing, especially for me, because I caused him to do it."

Your eyes begin watering and your voice cracks a lot.

"He confessed his feelings for me a while back but I didn't feel the same way about him. We had a huge fight and I ended up quitting. I began dating someone else and he was very angry but also heartbroken. I also began working for other people which only ignited the fire more."

At this point, you're straight up crying as you continue talking.

"I didn't mean for any of this to happen and I'm really sorry. To all the spades out there who hated on John and unsubscribed, it wasn't his fault. It was all my fault and I take full responsibility for my actions. Even though ninety percent of you all hate me now, I am going to be taking over this channel. I won't delete any of John's videos, but I will upload more of my own, since he is no longer here to do it. I am also changing the profile and cover photos to make it a collaboration channel. It won't be known as King Spade Gaming, but now Royal Spade Gaming. We used to always joke around and say he was the king and I was the queen, so we'd both be royals. I am really sorry to everyone I angered and upset. Hate me all you want. After all, I honestly do deserve it."

You wipe your eyes and take in a shaky deep breath. Then you look back straight into the camera.

"Have a good evening, Spade Nation. This was Queen Spade, and I'm sorry about the horrible news I have brought."

You turn off the camera and upload the video to John's channel without even editing it. It doesn't need it. They need to see the whole thing. You title the video, "No More King Spade" and make the thumbnail show you crying.

Ugh, I'm so ugly when I cry.

Upload Complete.

You sit back in your chair and look at the main page of the YouTube channel. The new profile picture is of two spades together with big letters saying "ROYAL SPADE GAMING". The cover photo is of two big spades, with a bazillion smaller ones in the back. The big words in the center say "Spades Beat Hearts".

As the king fades away, the queen takes charge...