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Chapter 32:

Cameron's POV

After Jessica regained back her normal breathing she fainted only being on her feet for 2 minutes.

"Cameron why didn't you say anything earlier!" Sammy yelled at me.

"Because I didn't want to do their dirty job!" I fought back no way was I going to risk their lives. "I thought they would stop I thought they were nothing that's why I thought they'd stop. So that's why she's unconscious and my fault" I said to them. "You wanted me to accept that offer I would have been putting all 6 of your lives endanger."

"Its was us or her huh" Gilinsky said.

I looked down. "Yeah I have to protect her with all means possible I don't know how I'm gonna do it but once this shit is over she's going home."

"We don't know how long that would take" Johnson butted in.

"Yeah we don't but- I'm keeping her safe I'll make sure no one lays a hand on her"

"Cameron I think you should take her back right now"

"Man, I would if I could but if I took her back first I don't know where she lives second if they threatened her and knew that it affected me of course they would go after her again if they knew I wasn't with her" I said. "Everyone go to sleep I'm tired of this" I picked up Jessica and carried her up to her room.

JESSICA'S POV

"Jessica!" I looked up.

"Mom dad? What are you doing here?" I asked them I ran to them and hugged them.

"Jessica we need to tell you one thing and one thing only" I nodded my head. "Trust Cameron with any means possible" for some reason I couldn't say anything and the same words were trust Cameron trust Cameron.

I opened my eyes knowing what I just saw was just a dream. Ugh I mentally groaned. I looked to my right and saw Cameron sleeping, his back against me. He always gets the right side damn it. I was cold and we were on top of my covers. I got up from my bed getting a little dizzy along the process. I went into my closet grabbing a big blanket for the both of us.

I walked over and laid down without waking him up. I put the blanket on both of us. The windows were opened and I wonder when they got open. Me being a scary cat I rolled over to him. My face against his bare back.

His feelings from me haven't changed. I wonder if his feelings did. Soon he turned over facing me and wrapped his arms around me.

I lightly started to fall asleep. I'm safe in his arms that's all I have to know and believe. But sometimes believing is seeing and Seeing is believing.

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Waking up I didn't feel so good. I was wrapped around Cameron's arms it felt nice but I didn't feel good. Soon I started to feel a weird liquid come up my throat. Oh shoot I'm gonna puke. I quickly got away from his arms probably waking him up.

"Jessica why did you wake up?!" He groaned.

I leaned into the toilet and sure enough the substance escaped my mouth. Gross

"Jess!" He ran to me. Grabbing my hair. So I wouldn't have to.

"So disgusting" I uttered. My stomach felt so empty. I felt so empty what the hell.

Once I thought I was done I grabbed toilet paper and wiped my mouth. Then closed the toilet and sitting on it before Cameron can see. I flushed the toilet as I sat there.

"Are you okay?" He asked putting his hand on my knee bending down.

"Yeah I think I am now" I got up grabbing my tooth brush and brushing my teeth. Mmhmm mint. "Let's go back to bed" I muttered.

"Wait no jess we have to talk about this" I was confused as to why he would say that. there's really nothing to talk about just the fact that I puked.

"Uhhhh... Okay I puked" I said not wanting to get into a fight with him.

"Yes but Jess-" he grabbed my arm.

"Cam what's going on I'm fine calm down"

"Jessica!" He looked deep into my eyes as if he wanted me to figure out what he was trying to say to me.

"What I don't know what you want!" I half yelled to him.

"Damn it Jessica what if you're pregnant!" He said obviously scared. I thought for a moment. Cameron pulled me so he can sit on the bed and him holding my hands. "You can't get pregnant if you're pregnant that's just too much!" He said to me. The last time we had sex was 5 days ago and you don't get pregnant that fast.

"Cameron a girl can't get pregnant in 5 days!" I yelled at him.

"Oh.." He trailed off.

"If you recall from last night I was choked maybe that triggered it or something" I said to him honestly sure. I pulled my hand away from him. I'm so tired right now I thought for the longest. We haven't had sex other than 5 days ago. And if Cameron doesn't want me to get pregnant well then that's his fault in the first place he's the one who had sex with me I didn't want to.

It hurt me that he didn't want to have a kid with me. Who knows I could possibly be in the process of getting pregnant and I wouldn't know. But I doubt it Cameron gave me a vaccine that I guess it was to prevent pregnancy. I don't know if that thing actually works. But we've had sex many times after that so who knows.

I was in my thoughts too much that Cameron started talking to me.

"Yes" I looked at him wondering what he wanted. I didn't really want to talk just wanted to sleep.

"We have to talk about something" he sat on the bed across from me. I sat up looking at him getting comfortable. I nodded my head signaling to go on.

"I don't want you talking or seeing or even noticing Jordan" he bluntly said.

"WHAT?" I half yelled. "You can't do that Cameron you took me away from my family. No way you're taking him away from me too" I said staring deep into his chocolate dark eyes. His eyes weren't the same as they used to. His eyes were dark. They looked as if they were full of lust or the look of scare.

"Jessica I'm doing everything in my power to keep you safe. Including now don't tell me how to do that because I want to keep you as safe as possible." I got up from the bed walking around the room as Cameron stared at me. Who does he think he is. Why is he going through so much trouble just for me. Why me? Why not one of the girls he has fucked before?

"You can't tell me you're going to protect me if you're scared" he sighed getting up from the bed following me. He walked all the way to me. I didn't know what to do so I started stepping back. Wow just how we first started this whole thing me up against a wall.

"I'm trying my hardest to be strong just for you. I'm doing everything for you right now. Yes Jess I'm a little scared because...." He trailed off. "I'm scared because I don't plan on losing you again. I'm scared I will lose myself in this and I'm scared that I will lose you". You have lost yourself and you are on the verge of losing me. I thought to myself. But at the same time i was feeling lost and the feeling of wanting. The feeling of him on me. The feeling of lust all of sudden came at me since. We were so close. Him wanting to protect me. Him wanting to not lose me. Made my heart feel full. Makes me feel that he wants me.

"You're not going to lose me" I whispered to him. "If you're going to be strong tell me how to help you get you there. Show me how to make you undefeatable" I whispered in his ear as his lips were on my neck.

"Just let me protect you on my own don't help me, do as I say. Just make sure you show me you're there for me" he said and I nodded closing my eyes. But this whole thing: Cameron and I we are toxic together. We're each other's ticking time bomb ready to hurt each other sooner or later.

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