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Back at my place

Chapter 33:

"So are you excited?" He asked me as I walked into his apartment.

"Hmmm I don't know should I?" I said with a smirk.

"Yes you should.. Well you should be more scared than anything" he winked at me and smacked my butt. I jumped as his hand stayed there.

"Just because I'm moving in doesn't mean everything you've said or done to me has changed. I'm doing it because you told me to show you how you will protect me. So show me that you can or I'll move back in with Shawn" I smiled at him so innocently.

"You know how mad I get now?" He sounded so frustrated this isn't a good sign.

"Cameron I'm just saying. I'm just watching over myself too" I said nicely. Trying to bring down his temper.

"Jessica I've told you many times I'll protect you! I'm going to do it!" He yelled at me.  Im ready to go back with shawn.

"Cameron what if something happens to you and you no longer can protect me?" I said as I hugged myself.

"Jessica- you know what I'm done!" He yelled and made a loud noise when he dropped the box.

"Okay Cameron I'm sorry" I went to go sit down on the chair not even 5 meters away.

"No no more sorry's Jess! You don't understand I'm protecting you and you won't let me. you question every second of it, you don't listen almost as if you don't want to be protected" I looked at him In disgust. It feels like he has not change from when we started. Of course Jess he's exactly the same he's never going to change. He's the one who kidnapped you for his own good. The one who didn't think twice for hurting you not even 2 weeks ago. You need to put your foot down and say what you need to say!.

"You know what Cameron. I'm tired of this too. You throw random mood swings. One minute you make me believe you actually want to protect me that you would do anything for someone you love. You make me think you love me. Yo-" he cut me off of course he would. He wants to say everything in his mind whenever he wants to.

"No Jessica I don't love you. Never had. I just need to keep you a little longer then take you home okay but in the mean time including right now I HAVE TO KEEP YOU SAFE!"

"Why do you care if I'm safe or not!? You've never cared about my feelings before nor my well being! Stop acting Cameron!"

"You know I can say the exact same thing to you. Have you ever thought that maybe you've led me on making me believe you love me! Because Jessica feels like you do all the time. Two can play at the game!"

"You've never once showed me a sign that you love me!" I yelled at him.

"Yes ive had Jessica I save you the times you were taken away from me you should have seen my face, my mind, my body language when I found out you were taken away from me you have no idea how much you mean to me! But this just shows that we aren't happy and that these thoughts of yours have to go away!" He said a little bit more calmly.

"You weren't the first to fall in love anyway!" I yelled at him. "Yes you did save me Cameron but all the times you've hurt me have you thought of that!" I yelled at him.

"Yeah I mess up but so do you!" He snarled.

"This was a bad idea not even an hour in and we're fighting!"

"Yeah and its your fault!" He raised his voice.

"No it's not I say something and your panties get in a twist! You twist my words and then blame me on things. I know you think I'm the blame of this but cameron you swing a bat and snap! Then your next mood changes when you hit a home run!"