too young for this { harry styles }

Chapter 7.

I dreamt of nothing that night.

No, I had a dream, but I dreamt of nothing.

I dreamt that there was nothing.

I don't know if it was the horrendus fact that maybe one day I would have nothing or that one day, nobody would have anything. There will be no internet or anual Sunday dinners for those classic Christian families. Everyone will be dead and swallowed up by the earth. There was a simple time when there was no one. Nobody could think or have any sense of identity. There will also be a time when nobody will care about the slightest thing because all of consiousness in the world will lack their existance.

This scares me because in the past few days, I actually found a reason to be alive.

And that reason I now have is, well of course, a reason to live a thousand lives. As long as it's with him. I've always made fun of those lovesick teenagers but I really am a hipocrite. Harry makes me want to be one of those lovesick teens that can't seem to think of anything else except for him.

I dreamt of a black hole, swallowing up everything that's ever happened to me.

Sure, I would love for that time I stubbed my toe on the door to be removed from existance, but this also made the things I like in life to be removed. Julia, One Direction, music, and most of all Harry.

I don't tend to have meaningless dreams, and this may seem meaningless.

But it sure as hell wasn't meaningless.

It made everything that was indeed meaningful, as if it were actually, indescribably meaningless.

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I woke up with a splash of water on my face.

I felt it on my face as I rubbed my eyes.

"What the hell...?" I whispered in my morning voice.

I opened my eyes to see Julia, trying not to laugh.

"WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU HERE?!" I yelled at her.

She shrugged. "I need a ride to school and Louis called me, saying for me to wake you up and then they'd take me to school."

I rolled my eyes. "Why do I have to wake up? I don't have sch-"

She put her index finger on my lips to hush me. "You're very right." She smiled. "But you are going to give the boys a tour of Durango. Their plane leaves in a few days and they'd like to see what you do."

My heart sunk when I heard this, he's leaving. Suddenly my dream became true.

"Okay. What time is it..?" I started to ask as I checked my phone.

The time was 7:43.

I also noticed I had 7 new texts.

From Boobear:

WAKE UP WE ARE GONNA COME AN GET YOU.

From Hazza:

We are all getting ready, I'll text you when we're on our way. Julia said she'd fill you in! x

From Nialler:

Wake up. Food. I need my food.

From Nialler:

Harry refuses to let me get food cause we'er going out to eat later. so hurry. I need food.

From Boobear:

STOP DREAMING OF HARRY AND WAKE UP.

From Nialler:

Did you hear me?! I NEED FOOD