I've done everything I possibly can. I've worked hard, worked smart and prioritized my life to tackle this obstacle. But just because I sacrificed my sleep and missed a few parties doesn't mean that everything will turn out my way for sure. There's a chance that it doesn't go my way. And the thought of that chance alone, makes me want to go ball up in a corner.
So I hope, with all of my jumpy heart that at the end of all of this mess, when I turn around and look back, I will be completely and totally happy. I will be content with what is the result of this mayhem and most importantly I will not have let anyone down. But I would have met everyone's expectations and gotten what I desired.
May luck be on my side this time.
Ameen.
