Cloud Castle

PROLOGUE [Don't Forget]

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Did you forget?

That I was even alive?

Did you forget?

Everything we ever had?

Did you forget?

Did you forget?

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''Don't...'' I whispered it was a cliché scene... It was raining hard and we're both soaked by the rain but it doesn't matter... It doesn't matter because the cold was nothing compared to the pain that I'm feeling right now. This is bad, those years that we've been through... He'll just throw it away because he's about to do something that will change everything in his life, our life. I hate it, I don't like it.

''My parents didn't want this for me but that's fine... Pero pati ba naman ikaw? Do you really love me?'' He said full of disappointment. Humahalo na yung luha ko sa ulan na pumapatak sa mukha ko. We were okay, we were fine and all. This happened when he told me that he was accepted as trainee sa isang Entertainment Company. This was too much for me to bear; I don't want to lose my humanity here. It's his dreams but I am selfish. I can't support him, I don't want to share him

''Don't—don't you dare insult the love that I had for you... I love you with everything in me.'' Wika ko sakanya sa pagitan nang mga hikbi ko. Magkaharap kami pero pakiramdam ko ang layo-layo namin sa isa't isa. There's this invisible barrier between us two that was slowly piling up until there's nothing that can break through it.

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Did you regret (did you regret)

Ever standing by my side

Did you forget (did you forget)

What we were feeling inside?

Now I'm left to forget

About us

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''Lois... You love me right? Eto na oh yung pangarap ko. Hindi lahat nang tao nabibigyan nang pagkakataon na ganito. Why can't you understand that? If you love someone you'll support them.'' He said it like my love for him now was questionable. I support him, always. But not this time, not this... I'm coward and scared. It'll break us and tear us apart. Alam kong nagiging makitid ang utak ko ngayon at nagiging makasarili ako. What can I do? Ayokong maging sikat ang taong mahal ko, gusto ko ay maging isang normal na tao lang siya. It may be good to others but not for me. I know how fame works, it's addicting. You'll want more of it until you lose all your reasons why you wanted that in the first place. My mother was like that, she left me the moment she passed the audition and she said she will come back but heck, she didn't. She married a business tycoon, I guess she realize that my father wasn't enough. She's ambitious and all. My father was the one who raised me and I love him for that. That's why I don't want him to do the same; promises are made to be broken. They just made that up to make someone hope for an impossible thing.

''Y-you know why I can't Clark... You know, we've known each other since we were an infant. At alam na alam mo kung bakit ayoko. Why can't you understand that also?'' I was crying my heart out; I don't care who sees me or what they say. Clark was one of the most important people in my life, he is my moderator and without him I can't keep myself on the ground. He's my person.

''I'm not like your mother Lois, I won't let us fall apart.''

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But somewhere we went wrong

We were once so strong

Our love is like a song

You can't forget it

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''Bullshit... That sounds like a bull; you're saying the same thing my mother told my father before.'' I yelled. Wala nang masyadong tao dito dahil sa lakas nang ulan. Bagyo na nga yata eto. It feels the same inside, it was also raining hard. It was like a hurricane that wants to destroy all the good things left of me. Clark or rather Xyzpher and I have known each other since we are 1 year old. Our parents were best buds, that's why we became the best bud also. Hindi kami pero sapat na yung nararamdaman namin para sa isa't isa. Relationship doesn't lasts and it complicates everything that's why we're not a couple but we love each other. It's not because you both love each other you have to be together.

''Dammit! Tigilan na natin, bukas na tayo mag-usap—''

I cut him off and then closed my eyes. Ayokong makita ang isasagot niya. ''Choose Xyzpher.'' I opened my eyes. Everything just shut off. It just stopped, something inside me decided to stop.

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So now I guess

This is where we have to stand

Did you regret?

Ever holding my hand?

Never again

Please don't forget

Don't forget

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He was just staring at me. Hindi siya makapaniwala na itatanong ko sakanya iyon na papipiliin ko siya. It was unfair, I know. But this was my last resort and if I lose this... I don't know anymore. I was staring at his eyes, reading whatever he's thinking. I felt like someone stabbed me, I can see his answer in his eyes even though he doesn't answer. Unti-unti kong hinakbang ang paa ko papunta sa likod. I can't take this anymore. My heart was already breaking, I feel it. So I run, far away from him as possible. I cannot believe I was feeling the same feeling my mother made me and my father feel.

''Lois!'' I heard him shout then the next thing I knew naitulak na niya ako then I saw him being hit by the car. Tumilapon siya. I saw him fall, I was standing there. I can't move... Nag simula nang lumapit yung iba. May tumawag na nang ambulansya. Doon ko lang narealize ang nang yayari.

His blood was all over the place. I can't see or anything beside him lying there. No... He saved me, it was because of me. If he hadn't saved me, I'm supposed to be there. I'm supposed to be dying, he can't die. He can't leave me. He can't... Gods, this was my entire fault. Please... Save him.

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We had it all

We were just about to fall

Even more in love

Than we were before

I won't forget

I won't forget

About us

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