Cloud Castle

19. His Lois Lane?

We always want something we know we can't have but sometimes, fate will play because when you already accepted the fact that you can't have it... Tsaka niya pa biglang ibibigay sa'yo... And you don't get to see it every day that's why when it happen you deny yourself that it's happening. For years I wished for Clark to come back, every single day I prayed for it. I cried for him a million times, I died for him. I loved him all my life up to the extent that I hate myself. I made a hundred scenarios on what to do if ever this happens but now that it's happening... Hindi ko kayang paniwalaan, the first that came to my mind was he's just using me to make Louisse come back to him.

Binalik ko lahat nang binigay niya sa akin... Inulan ako nang mga tanong nang mga kasama ko sa office pero maski isa wala akong sinagot sakanila. How am I supposed to tell them that the person who sent those was the same guy they want for Louisse and I couldn't blame them for not knowing. I'm in the middle of moving on; I'm at the point where I already accepted the fact that he's not coming back...

I feel like he's hurting me more than the love I have for him, I feel like it's too much for me to bear anymore. Nakikita kong kailangan niya lang nang pantakip sa pag hihiwalay nila ni Louisse. Now I'm sitting here in front of Louisse. The girl I swear I wanted to hate but I can't, not when she's crying and smiling at the same time telling me all of Clark's favorite and not. I realized that after he lost his memory he become a complete different person. He becomes just like her, the way she smiled or the way she talk, the way she mention his name.

''He likes eating pancake every morning with nutella on top... Please... please take care of him? I wanted to hate you Adrylle but I can't... You're part of Laurent's past and I love him that's why I can't hate you... I'm jealous of you because you've been with him since he was young and... and h-his family loves you... He broke up with me because... because he wants his memories back. I... I'm sorry if it's hard for you being here with me... I'm sorry Adrylle, I didn't know you were hurting but I love him so please, take care of him...'' She said while her tears keep on falling on her pretty little face and she was holding my hand. She was begging for me to take care of the man she loves like her life depended on it. How can she do that? How can she talk to me how much she loves him and let him go? She should've hold on to him tight. Mahal ko si Clark pero hindi ko kayang agawin siya.

''Stop it Louisse... He's not coming back to me. Ano bang sinasabi mo?'' I told her. Why am I being martyr? May nag bago ba? Kung dati siguro kahit ako na ang tumakbo papalapit kay Clark gagawin ko but now? I wanted to run away from him. I wanted to avoid him; I don't understand what he's thinking anymore.

''No... I mean it; he's coming back to you and... and oh my God... I can't do anything about it.''

I smiled bitterly. ''Louisse... You're not supposed to do this... I'm not waiting for him anymore.''

''You're not but he will... He will make you come back... Maybe they right when they said that heart remember what the mind forgets...'' She said smiling while tears were beaming down her face.