''One scotch, clean...'' I said. Nakailang inom na ba ako? They say you need to drink to forget and I did but now that I'm effing drunk the more the memory becomes clear. There's so many people around me yet I feel so alone. I came back here because I thought finally I'm going to have my happy ending but nah...
''Mister bartender, can I ask you something... Is the stage open for anyone?''
He smiled at me... He's so handsome to be just a bartender--No not that I'm discriminating them... ''Yes ma'am, would you like to sing ma'am?''
''I really don't know how but my heart's broken and I need to let it out, that's fine right?'' I joked at him
''Anything for a beautiful lady...'' and he smiled before nodding at me. Naglakad ako patungong stage diretso pa naman lakad ko or so I think? ugh. bahala na bukas. Lumapit ako sa nag gigitara tapos sinabi ko yung kanta na gusto ko and he knows. Of course, it's shawn mendes song titled mercy.
Then he strums and I smiled at the crowd, I even heard someone said who is she? Sorry. They all focused on me, well I was wearing a dress without heels, I'm barefoot. Maybe they're thinking I'm some kind of lunatic or whatever.
I closed my eyes, I never really like singing---well I used to when I was a little girl I love singing for my parents but then she left us so since then I hated it. No one know that I could sing not even Clark or Luke, well except for my father and it wasn't exactly my talent it's just something I do for my parents when I was young...
''You've got a hold of me. Don't even know your power. I stand a hundred feet but I fall when I'm around you...''
Stupid Adrylle Celestine Eisma, don't know when to fight or when to give up her battles. You should know that the moment you left there's no turning back, there's no getting him back anymore. You had a choice and you choose to left him because you're scared.
''Show me an open door... Then you go and slam it on me, I can't take anymore... I'm saying baby...''
Oh my God... You weren't scared you're a freaking coward... You just want to sugar coat that... You can't always have what you want, right? Freaking stupid because I feel like... It's Clark all over again and the more I realize I can't have him the more I freaking realize that I'll probably grow old alone...
''Please have mercy on me, Take it easy on my heart even though you don't mean to hurt me, you keep tearing me apart... Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart... Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart...''
When I closed my eyes a tear fell... I sighed and smiled apologetic to the crowd because I can't finish the song without tearing up... ''Thank you...''
Nung bumaba ako sa stage nila bumalik ako sa inupuan ko kanina. Nakatingin sa akin yung bartender.
''Shot ma'am?''
I nod. ''Vodka...''
Hindi ko alam kung nakailan na ako ng inom o kung ano-ano na ang nainom ko sinabi ko kasi sa bartender na kahit ano na lang ibigay niya kasi gusto kong uminom ngayon. I'm not a good drinker pero kasi when you're heart was broken it won't matter anymore because all you're going to notice was how hurt you are. I wasn't like this with Xyzpher before and I don't know what's different now... I just kept on drinking, hindi ko na tinawag sila Riel o kung sino pa man. This was my problem I don't have to drag anyone anymore. I'm the one who put myself to this position. Feeling ko may gustong sabihin iyong bartender hindi niya lang masabi.
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Cloud Castle
RomantiekAdrylle has always been his Lois Lane. But then he had dreams which she cannot approve. Then fate had to intervene and bring all the pain she could ever think of. Will she fight for her Superman or be like a soldier that knows when to give up?
