When you fall deeply in love, you forget about a lot of things like, the standards you have set that must first be met before allowing a person to enter your life, the lessons you have learned from your past relationships, and the mistakes you have promised yourself not to do again.
''He's getting married...'' Riel said.
Napalingon ako sakanya. ''Ano?'' Anong sinasabi nitong baliw na ito?
''Baks, sinali siya doon sa reality variety show na Status: Married, si Fafa Bellamy...'' Nakasimangot na sabi niya sa akin. The mentioning of his name makes my heart flutter and it feels like it was drowning... I almost lost my cool down but deep inside it hurts, I know what show it is. They're going to be a couple, no script just camera around.
''So?'' Act apathetic Adrylle... Ginusto mo iyan diba? My thoughts went blank out of the blue. I tried so hard not to mention his name or their group the moment I stepped my foot on that plane.
He just shrugged then he raise his eyebrows at me. ''Bahala ka baks. Nood tayong begin again?'' I just nod my head to stop him from bugging me again. I couldn't think properly right now. So what? So what? It's just a show... They will going to act like a... a married couple, there's no big deal right? It's fine you'll just have to bare it, seeing them on TV every day being married and sweet and all. Okay lang talaga diba Adrylle? Kasi nga tanga ka... It's just a show... but still. It will hurt like damn hell....
When my father asked me if I am happy. I realize I was happy for a brief moment. ''Are you happy?'' is such a difficult question. I always say yes because I have friends, I laugh at jokes, I go out a lot and have fun... But when the night falls... All the things I'm trying so hard not to think and all the feelings I'm trying not to feel will come flooding me. Maybe I wasn't exactly happy because when I left I was aware that I was leaving my heart, I was leaving my chances with the love of my life--Yes... I admitted already the truth from myself that I was already in deep the moment Bellamy walked into my life... Maybe that's why they say broken girls was vulnerable and they tend to fall to fast. That was I was so scared to know that what if--what if my feelings for him was just spur of the moment or short term... What if I only thought I loved him because he keeps on telling me he do?
I blinked... What if I was already too late? What if he doesn't want me anymore? What if... It's like... Clark all over again? Why am I so unfortunate when it comes to this things?
They asked me how I could lose someone who was never mine to begin with. 'Easy,' I tell them, 'you fall in love with their mind, heart and soul without laying a finger on their body and then you watch the world take them away from you in the most heartbreakingly innocent way possible.'
''I can't...'' I whisper.
Napalingon sa akin sila Riel... Nasa kalagitnaan kasi kami nang panunuod nang sine... It was about a girl and a boy who's so in love with each other, they both do things together and they both love music. Then the boy got to make his dreams come true and all while doing that he forgets his life before and then he cheated and she left... Then she saw him in front of the crowd and she realized that... that their love wasn't enough anymore---that he's not the same anymore because he belongs to public now.
''Ano be?''
BINABASA MO ANG
Cloud Castle
RomansaAdrylle has always been his Lois Lane. But then he had dreams which she cannot approve. Then fate had to intervene and bring all the pain she could ever think of. Will she fight for her Superman or be like a soldier that knows when to give up?
