West Side Highway (A$ap Rocky)

41• Don't Tell Me I'm Trippin'

"What time is it?" I asked as Rakim drove down a highway.

"After twelve. Why? You got somewhere to be?"

"I was just asking. You don't need to do all of that." I shot back.

"Hm."

"Remember when we were friends?"

"We still are friends." He chuckled nervously and cracked his knuckles.

"Fuck no! You ain't even had to do all this, Rakim! Two years of my life wasted because of your bullshit thinking imma snitch on you. I was the only real friend you had and you never knew it! What made you think I was gonna rat you out!?"

"You wasn't my only friend." He snickered.

"I wasn't? Who was there for you when that foreign bitch cheated? Who was there when Ricky died, who was there on that corner trying to help your brother!?" I shouted. "Me! I felt your pain, I've felt worse and you do this because I saw you kill someone. I had your back, Rakim. You didn't have mine!"

"I always had your back, Toni! Don't play me like that."

"You ain't do shit for me. I really should be mad at myself for messing around with another hood nigga like you. The streets wasn't my thing and you knew it, you forced me into all the bullshit I'm in right now! I could've been something if I hadn't kicked it with you. What's your reasoning behind all this?"

He didn't say anything.

"Don't have one do you?"

"I'm only doing this because I'm afraid." He said.

"Afraid. Because you're afraid. Of what? Rakim Mayers the man on our block is afraid."

"I'm afraid of losing what's important to me. You and my family."

"That's some bullshit! You ain't afraid of no nigga on the block, that crackhead down the street, the police, or a nigga with a pistol but you're afraid of losing me. Who am I to you?! I'm not anything anymore! Once I get in the real word I'm fucked, I don't know how to do a lot of shit I'm supposed to know."

"You're everything to me! If I didnt love you, I would've just fucked you and left."

"Fucking and staying doesn't mean it's love. It means you're a fucking leech looking for something else to take from me. I just wanted to go home."

"I don't want you to leave me. Toni, I'm being one hundred percent honest with you. I don't want to hurt you or cause you any harm."

"You already did! It's been done, I don't even know where my life goes from here. You and your goons just toss me around like I don't have feelings. I'm just something you stick your dick in and call it love. You just a weak ass nigga."

"Don't do that. It's deeper than that. I ain't never told a hoe I love her. Toni, I love you."

"Get that shit out of my ear. How come you told that bitch that gave you head you loved her? You don't know shit about love and I fell for it when you first said it. You like to play mind games and brainwash people. You're a manipulative bitch ass nigga."

   We both didn't say anything else. We just sat in here trying to get to wherever we're going. A couple of tears came out his eyes but I dont give a fuck.