You. Betrayed. Me.
Three words I never thought
I would write together.
But now I am.
I need to get it all off my chest
I need closure
And that's why I am writing this verse.
When I first met you
You were a Rubik's Cube
A riddle to solve
A maze to explore.
And I was thrilled
When you opened up to me
You even gave me a hazy map
To your unfathomable maze.
But then I made a mistake
I gave you all of me
Every cell, every fibre
Every thought and sacred memory
Given to you in trust.
You were a virus
Innocuous, quiet and unassuming outside
But the moment you climbed inside my heart
You turned malignant.
You became a toxin, a poison
But I was too sedated to see it.
You were clasped so close to my heart
An unshakeable parasite
An inoperable tumour
I could only excise you
By sacrificing pieces of myself.
I gave you the power to demolish me
And you did.
But now I've risen from the rubble.
My first reaction was grief
At the destruction you wreaked
But then it gave way to white hot anger
A burning corrosive force.
The fury I felt
Was so intense
It transformed me into Not Me.
I started losing myself.
And then the miracle happened
I. Forgave. You.
Releasing my anger and resentment
Watching it float away
Like a soap bubble
Was the most wonderful thing in the world.
I Forgive you
There!! That feels so good.
Know this.
Next time I see you, I WILL smile
Next time I see you, I WILL be kind
But the word TRUST exists
Between us no longer.
I'm at peace
Nothing can waver me now.
I can't hold a grudge
I don't know how.
Don't call me weak
Because I choose to
Fling the acid away
Before it can burn me.
YOU ARE READING
NEPENTHE
PoesieHi there! The word NEPENTHE means anything that induces forgetfulness of sorrow or pain. I, for one, believe that little things like smiles, my mother's comfort food and long walks are the best forms of nepenthe around. These poems celebrate the s...
