Something About You (Harry Styles fanic) *EDITING*

chapter 11

“Losing someone has to be the most difficult thing to cope with, truly a life changing experience.”- unknown

Harry's point of view:

     it was nearly one in the night when I got Sam's call, she seemed really scared I was talking to her when her phone got cut which made me hurry even faster I hope I am not too late I would never forgive myself if something happened to her. Luckily the graveyard that she was in was not even ten minutes ride from my place. I drove my range rover as fast as I could and got there earlier. "Sam? Where are you??Samantha Green?? Now wouldn't be the time to play hide n seek please tell me where you are??" I yelled.

Sam's point of view:

       I kept staring at the lady who started to walk away when she heard a voice, her actions  pulling me out of my trance and reply to Harry "Sam where are you?? " he yelled I could see him looking everywhere frantically I decided to put him out of his misery "Harry" I yelled loud enough for him to look at me, he ran towards me and engulfed me in a bone crushing bear hug "god Sam you scared me why would you be so stupid and come to the graveyard in the middle of the night." he yelled "I needed to think okay." I huffed "think? Seriously come to the graveyard in the middle of the night to think" he yelled louder "I come here when I need to think because the only guy I have ever loved lays here." I yelled back, his face softened immediately, "what?” his voice was barely a whisper now "Harry I would like you to meet Damon Scott the guy who was the love of my life." I spoke choking on the last part. we both sat down just looking at Damon's tombstone for awhile before I decided to break the silence "Damon was the only guy I ever loved he was my world, he was with me when my world crumbled before me, when my dad died I remember that was the night I met Damon he was in the hospital that night I sat in the staircase of the emergency exit crying my eyes out that's when I saw Damon he just sat next to me and gave me a shoulder to cry on I had no idea who was? What was his name?  nothing; but there was something about Damon that made me feel safe, then, we slowly got to know each other, he brought happiness in my life when I needed it the most. I don't remember a single time I fought with Damon and even when we had those pity arguments we would just kiss and it would all be good again. He stayed with me when my mum left me, it was my 16th birthday and I was coming home after my date with Damon and I came home to an empty house there was just a crushed piece of paper that had sorry written across it." I stopped and looked at Harry he pulled me closer making me lean on his chest, breathing in his cologne which immediately seemed to calm me down.

       "I cried that day I cried so much; I felt so lost; so alone. That’s when Damon gave me this." I pulled out this chain I never removed it had an infinity symbol "he said it was his promise to me, that we will always be together we will have our forever, no matter what he will protect me. After that night Damon moved in and it was perfect, but you see this world is a cruel world when they see the slightest ray of sunshine they destroy it." I whipped the tear that escaped my eye. We remained silent for awhile, Harry held me close his warmth and cologne calming me down, I have never spoken about my past to anyone not even Eleanor but something about Harry that made me want to tell him, he  made me want to drop my walls that I had built over the last 3 years.

       I decided to break the silence by continuing the story "the last night I spent with him is still clear in my head. we were out of popcorn and we were having our famous movie nights, and you can't have a movie night without popcorn so Damon and I were supposed to go to the store near the gas station near my place, but he insisted that he would go alone as it was nearly 11 in the night and when he was about to leave he turned back and kissed me goodbye and told those three words that every girl dreamt off "I love you." it was the first time he had ever said it. "I love you Sam forever and for always I promise". He kissed me again and left. I just stood there for awhile just processing what had just happened. I had never experienced what love was, but I knew that Damon was the only guy who could make heart beat faster and slower at the same time and if that's what love was I was ready to scream it to the world. that was the happiest nights of my life and as weird as it sounds I was still a virgin at that time I wasn't ready and he never pressured me until I was ready myself, and that night I knew I  was ready, I was ready to give myself to Damon to show him that he was my world." I sobbed as I spoke that painful memory speaking about Damon's death was the hardest thing I ever had to do. "Shh.... Sam its okay it's going to be okay." Harry's voice was soothing giving me the strength to continue. "It was mid night and Damon hadn't returned yet I decided to go out and look for him. That's  when I heard a knock sending a sense of relief through my body but when I opened the door I saw a cop in front of me "Samantha green?" it wasn’t good the last time I had cops at my house was when they came to tell me about my dad’s death they never come with good news "yes? " "Do you know Damon Scott?" "Yes he is my boyfriend." "I am sorry miss but there was a shooting in the grocery store near the gas station and Mr. Scott was one of the victims. He had been shot in the heart and it was immediate death. I am truly sorry for your loss if there is anything we can do let me know." I just nodded and shut the door on his face and broke down just like that my happiness was taken away from me, he was killed and I never even got to tell him I love him. I didn't go for his funeral I couldn't bare to see my Damon like that but I did come every day to his grave and I use to just lay here like I could still feel his presence. Damon lied to me he said we would have our forever but he lied just like everyone else he also left me." I held on to Harry's shirt and cried and cried, he just held me close and occasionally kissed my head showing me that he cared. 

     "I remember the night of his funeral I had gone to this random bar and drank and drank away the pain, I don’t really remember what happened next but the next day I woke up to see that I was in a stranger's bed, I just realized that day I had lost my virginity to some stranger so before he could get up I ran away, and since then I used alcohol and sex to make this pain go away. El found in one of the clubs and we were friends before my life became a wreck, she took me in and took care of me tried to change me. I really do want to change for her she has done so much for me but you can’t change who you are." I shrugged "you're wrong Sam, this is just a cover up I know you are hurt and you say you don’t feel anything but you do deep down inside the girl who Damon fell in love with is still there she never left. you still care for people, you still get hurt when people call you names but they don't see what I see, what Damon saw, they don't see the girl who has gone through so much, you deserve the world same and I know you don’t believe this now but I want to prove it to you, I want to show you that not everyone comes into your life hurt and leave you give me a chance go on a date with me?" He smiled at me, waiting for an answer.....

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