Something About You (Harry Styles fanic) *EDITING*

chapter 35

“The world is not a wish granting factory” –the fault in our stars, john green.

Harry's point of view:

"Harry it's time" Liam snaps me away from my thoughts; I just nod and walk into the room filled with mourning people crying for the girl that I love.

The pain in my chest doesn't seem to go away. When she is not here, I am not here. "It’s going to be okay haz" Niall gives me a weak smile; I shake my head and walk towards the casket.

She lay there looking as beautiful as ever, her face looking flawless, but yet her glow was missing. I lean in and lay gentle kiss on her lips, she felt cold against my warm ones. A tear slips and falls on her soft skin; I brush the tear away and take in every tiny detail because in the next hour she will taken away from not like she wasn't already.

"You really loved her, didn't you?" the man behind me asks me, I recognize him almost immediately Gary from the bar.

"I will always love her" I didn't want to seem rude but I hated how people keep talking about how I loved Sam, but the truth is I will always love her, dead or alive. Love doesn't die when the person does and my love for Sam will never go away.

I walk away and take a seat in the first row near Eleanor who hasn't stopped crying either. People go one by talking about her and what she meant to them. Finally it was my turn; I hope I don't have a breakdown.

I clear my throat and look to the girl who made me believe in love "Samantha Green had a special place in all our hearts, as friend or a daughter or to one like her sister, to me Sam will always be the girl who taught me what love is" I clear my throat trying to focus on the few words I had written for her.

"She was one of the most stubborn girl I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. My day started with her and ended with her, unfortunately I don't get to have those anymore. She taught me how to love and be loved. She stole my heart and it is hers to keep. She is my forever and even though you were taken from me and I know you are not physically amongst us you will always be in our hearts. I love you Sam forever and always, just like we always promised." I wipe my tears and join the crowd.

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With every grain of sand they threw on her casket it made me feel like I couldn't breathe. I suddenly felt claustrophobic like the walls were closing on me. She is gone, my beautiful girl was gone and there was nothing I could do about it. She couldn’t have left me, this is all some cruel trick god is playing on me. She couldn’t have been taken away from me just like that she was so young and was doing this to help her mum. She couldn’t have died. I slowly start to move away from the crowd and started running, running away from everything.

"Harry wake up buddy" I was shaken awake from that horrible nightmare; I glanced around the waiting room trying to get my breathing to slow down.

"You okay?" Niall asks me concerned as I am dripping in sweat. He pulls me into hug as I sob on his shoulder "I can’t lose her Niall."

"You won’t buddy."

Sam's point of view:

The pain was unbearable; I wanted to give up so badly. I just wanted all of this to stop. Just let it all go for a minute and it will all be over, just let go..... I could feel my heartbeat slowly down, just few more minutes and this will all be done.

I kept trying to give in to the pain but I felt a current running through my body jolting me awake, I pushed it away, until I felt it again but this time I saw Harry's face "don't give up Sam please" he begs me, tears filling his eyes "it hurts Harry" I tell him but it’s like he can’t hear me "please Sam. I love you" he falls to his knees as I feel the current passing through me again "baby please" he begs one last time before I decide to fight. And finally the pain subsides, and I finally feel like I could breathe again.