Something About You (Harry Styles fanic) *EDITING*

chapter 40

“What do you do when the one person you want comfort from the most is the one who caused your pain? How can I want so desperately for him to wrap me up in his arms but also want so much for him to leave me alone.”

― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

Sam’s point of view:

I push Lucus away from disgusted with what just happened, one minute we were arguing the next he lays his disgusting lips over mine and kisses me. “Lucus I can’t believe you just did that” I shove him still trying to comprehend what just happened in the last two minutes, the way he just assumed that kissing me was okay. His lips were rough not like Harry’s, I feel guilt rushing through my veins as I know this would hurt him, but it wasn’t even my fault.

Just when I am happy about my present the mistakes of my past seems to always creep up. “I think you should go” I whisper as I look away from Lucus “I love you Sam” he walks closer making me take a step back “Lucus please leave. I never loved you and I never will. My heart belongs to harry” I tell him, he remains silent for a few seconds I take that as my queue and walk away from him.

I take one last look at Lucus when I clash into someone “shit sorry Louis” I quickly apologize and walk away when I feel Louis grab my arm. “What’s wrong Louis?” I ask him.

“Like you don’t know” He snaps at me and tightens his grip around my arm making me wince “Louis you’re hurting me” I try pulling my arm away from just to have him pull me closer “like you’re hurting harry” he snarls at me.

“Louis I don’t know what you are talking about. I would never hurt harry” I defend myself.

“I knew this would happen I knew getting someone like you in Harry’s life would just end up hurting him” he spoke to himself.

“What do you mean someone like me?” I ask him “a slut like you” he spits at me making my breath hitch I didn’t know how to react.

 “I can’t believe I let el convince me that you were a good person and you would change for harry and you would never hurt him and I actually believed her but I should have known that people like you will never change Sam. I was stupid to believe that a good guy like harry would change you that’s why I made the bet with him in the first place.” He paces around trying to calm down, the tears fill my eyes but I refuse to let it fall.

“What bet?” I ask him hoping it’s not what I think it is “that harry could make you to fall in love with him. I warned him not to fall for you but he being the guy he is, he did fall”

I don’t bother holding in the tears any longer, it was all just a bet. All those kisses that we shared, all those moments where he told me he loved was just for a fucking bet.

“Was el a part of this?” I ask through my tears “it was her idea, she had this crazy idea that you would change if you fell in love, but here you are kissing another guy just as harry is about to leave. You are a slut Sam and you will always be alone.” He tells me and leaves me alone.

I didn’t know what hurt more Louis’s words or the betrayal I felt right now. It was el’s idea, how could she play me like this. I thought she was the one person who would never hurt me, the only person who was a sister to me. She was practically the only family I had left. I have never felt so alone in my life, I feel myself slipping back into that dark place that I thought I would never have to see again. I wipe my tears and put on the brave face to go and face him.

I walk over to the table and see Louis sending a glare towards my direction, el looks at me and smiles making heart ache. I will not shed another tear I take a deep breath and tap his shoulder. Harry turns around and smiles but it quickly disappears when he sees my state.

“Sam what’s wrong?” he gets up and takes a step closer to me and I take a step back “Sam?” he calls out and reaches to touch my arm but before he could touch me I move my hand away. I know if he touches me I won’t be able to resist falling into his arms as he comforts me, but then I wouldn’t need comforting if it was for him.

“What was the bet about?” I ask him, I knew Louis told me exactly what everything was but then I needed to hear it from him “Sam….I told you it was nothing” he shifts in his place “Louis told me harry I just need to hear it from your mouth but then again everything that comes out from your mouth is just another lie that I would believe.” I sigh in defeat.

“This is what I heard when I was unconscious right? Louis talking about how you should thank him or something like that. Why didn’t you just tell me the truth for once harry? I knew you were hiding something but I didn’t want to push you. If only I had known it was something this disgusting.”

“Sam I never wanted you to find about anything it may have started out like a bet but I never even thought about the bet when I was with you. I fell so deeply in love with you. I can’t stop the way I feel about you, I loved you even when I knew…”

“A slut like me couldn’t fall in love right?” I complete the sentence for him “no Sam, don’t you ever think that. You are not a slut” he reaches out for me again but I just move away.

“But I am Louis made it pretty clear to me. How I am a slut and I will always be alone. And right now I wish I never met you harry, I would rather be alone than feel like this.” I sob not able to hold in my tears.

“Sam please don’t do this. Nothing has changed I love you forever and always remember?” he repeats Damon’s promise to me, I close my eyes shut as I try  to push away this feeling but nothing seems to push away this heartache.

“Don’t you dare speak Damon’s words when you don’t mean it. You love me harry really? But I don’t believe you. I can’t believe I let myself feel.” I mumble the last part to myself. I turn to look at el who has tears streaming down her face.

“You wanted the old Samantha back right el? Well she died a long time ago, people like you killed her. I thought being alone was bad but nothing can be worst than feeling like this. Betrayed and alone.” I turn around and walk away from the restaurant.

“Sam please wait!” harry runs after making me walk away faster. “I love you Sam please just stop” he calls after me I stop as I hear those words.

“I hate you harry. I hate how you hurt me and I hate how I am feeling. I never wanted you to rescue me only to leave me broken hearted again. I am glad you are leaving tomorrow. I never want to see you again.” The words fell like acid when it comes out of my mouth and when the hurt is seen in Harry’s face I fell worse.

“Sam are you okay?” Lucus car stops at the curb making me turn around to look at him “do you need a ride?” he asks me I turn to look at harry for one last time, the tears escape his eyes as I turn to walk towards Lucus car.

“I will always love you Sam forever and always. I just hoped you could see it too.” I hear him whisper before I enter the car and Lucus drives away.

a/n

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