Something About You (Harry Styles fanic) *EDITING*

chapter 16

“A million guys can chase after you, but being rejected by the one you want can make your entire world fall apart.” -unknown

Sam’s point of view:

I was hurt; no one has ever rejected me. And let me tell you rejection is a bitch. How could he walk away? Didn’t he feel what I did? Didn’t he feel the sparks? I know I did. I knew with every kiss I wanted more I wanted him but clearly he didn’t. I whipped away the tear that escaped my eye, what is with me? Am I actually crying for him? I don’t feel anything right? then why did his simple no and him leaving hurt me so much? He didn’t even tell me why he didn’t want me.

I whipped the tears that escaped my eyes. I should have stayed away; I should have never gone on that date, I should have never kissed him. The tears flowed down my cheeks why can’t it just stop? Why can’t I go back to the way I was? I have never felt so weak ever since Damon left. I need him now I grabbed my jacket and walked out. It’s well after mid night but I didn’t care, I need him, I needed that comfort.

I walked to the one place I knew I would find comfort, one place where no one would hurt me. I spent so many nights here wishing he would come back to me just for one more night, wishing I could tell him that I loved him. I leaned against his stone “Damon.” I sniffed after half an hour my tears hadn’t stopped, the pain of rejection hadn’t gone. The cold wind blew making me pull my jacket closer “I miss you Damon, I need you. I wish you were here to tell me everything is going to be okay that you are always going to be there for me. But you’re not here, he is not here.” I cried why was I missing harry was it that he rejected me that hurt? Or was it the pain I felt when he left? “I let him in; I let harry in and all I get is pain. I knew I should have stayed away, I knew I was better off alone. People always leave right? My dad left, my mom left and you left, and that’s what he did today he left me.” I cried harder as the pain in my chest just seemed to grow. “I didn’t mean to leave.” I heard his voice.

Harry’s point of view:

I tossed and turned in my bed hoping I could get some sleep but every time I closed my eyes I see Sam's face she looked so hurt when I left, but what other choice did I have other than leave? I didn’t want to stay there and actually let things get carried away when she was clearly drunk; I didn’t want to be one of those guys who she just sleeps with cause wants the pain to go away I want her to actually need me the way I need her. I know I shouldn’t have left her like that especially when she was so hurt, I didn’t want too, it killed me, but if I didn’t  I knew it would lead to something that we both would regret in the morning and that’s the last thing I wanted from her; Regret.

My phone disrupted my thoughts; it was el calling, my thoughts immediately go to Sam is she alright? Its 3 am el wouldn’t call unless it was an emergency. “Hey el is everything alright?” “Ummmm....no actually I am locked out of my apartment and I was hoping Sam was with you so that I could get the key from her.”  I heard her chuckle “sorry el but Sam isn’t here.” “I thought she went to the club with you?” “She did but I left her at you’re place, I am sure she is just asleep.” I try consoling my heart telling it that Sam was alright “with the amount of times I rang our bell I am sure she would have woken up if she was here.” She chuckled “so what are you going to do about your key?” “I think I will spend the night at Louis place.” “How you going to get there?” “I’ll take a cab.” “No way; I am picking you up in ten minutes.” “Harry you don’t have too.”  “Please one I want too and two if I don’t Louis will kill me.”  She laughed “true, okay I will see you in ten.”

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“Thanks for picking me up harry.” El smiled as she sat “no problem.” I smiled. The ride with el was usually never awkward but you could sense the tension as she wanted to tell me something and I wanted to ask her something. “Are you sure Sam isn’t there? When I left she was drunk so I assumed she would pass out.” I broke the silence; I had to know if she was okay “maybe your right she must have passed out.” She shrugged. But that didn’t help me, I needed to makes sure she was okay, she looked pretty hurt when I left, I knew I shouldn’t have left, I should have stayed by her side. I reached Louis house within ten minutes, I had to go back and check on Sam, “hey thanks again hazza.” She smiled as she slid out “el does Louis have your extra key?” “Yeah he does, why?” she smiled “I think I left my.....my wallet in your place.” I smiled awkwardly; el could always tell when I was lying so I am hoping she doesn’t figure it out “I’ll go get it wait here.” She smiled.

I saw her tiny figure run into Louis arms as he spun her around planting a kiss on her lips, its 3 am and they still manage to show their love for each other, I hope to have that someday. “Here you go.” She grinned as she handed me the key “thanks.”

I reached their house in ten, as I walked up the stairs I was hoping I open the door to find her sleeping peacefully; I just want to know that she is safe. I slowly open the door trying not to make any noise because if she was sleeping I didn’t want to disturb her. I creep into her room to find it empty; where the hell could she have gone? Her jacket and phone are missing, its like four in the morning it’s not safe for her, there are creeps out there. I started to get worried when I realized where she could have gone.

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I shiver as I walk into the graveyard, I hate this place, but I need to make sure she is okay and knowing her she would want to be with Damon, I walk closer as I hear her sob, I hate seeing her like this so vulnerable, so upset. “I let him in; I let harry in and all I get is pain. I knew I should have stayed away, I knew I was better off alone. People always leave right? My dad left, my mom left and you left, and that’s what he did today he left me.” As soon as the words escape her mouth I realized what an idiot I was, “I didn’t mean to leave.” Were the only words I could think off?

Sam’s point of view:

I turn around to see the one person who I didn’t want to see, yet why did my heart started racing as soon as I looked into his green eyes “ I didn’t mean to leave Sam, I shouldn’t have left.” He spoke louder as he came closer to me, I couldn’t think properly all the words, all the things I wanted to tell him just didn't seem to come out, he walked close enough for our bodies to be touching “I am sorry.” He whispered “stop it harry, stop with all the lies okay.” I finally yelled “what lies?” he asked clearly confused “that you didn’t mean to leave, just when I thought you were different you end up being one of them you left, you fucking left me.” I yelled “I had to leave Sam.” He yelled louder “are you kidding me you had to leave?” why harry?”

“Cause I didn’t want to be another one night stand; I didn’t want to be another guy who you fuck and then leave.” He yelled, the words seem to hurt me more than it should have “one of my one night stands?” my voice barely audible “I didn’t mean it that way.” He sighed “which other way would it mean harry?” I yelled “you didn’t want to be one of them, if you were so sure that I was going to leave then why bother asking me out, why act like you care?” I cried “I didn’t act, I do care for you Sam, more than I should, I am standing in a fucking grave yard at 4:30 in the morning just because I wanted you to be safe. I do this cause I care.” he yelled “Then why leave, why did you go?” I snapped at him “you told me to leave if you don’t remember.” He snapped back, “You know I didn’t mean it, I wanted you to stay, to at least give me a reason to why you rejected me. You know how much it hurts when the person you started falling for rejects you?” he remained silent “why Harry? I want you to tell me why, I need to know. Didn’t you feel the sparks I felt? Don’t you feel the way I feel?” I cried “I do Sam, I fell the sparks every time I look at you let alone when I kiss you.” He took a step closer closing the little distance that was between us. “Then why leave?” I looked into his eyes “because I didn’t want you to get up with regret, I wanted you to remember our first time cause Sam I know with you it isn’t just sex; with you it will be more, I want it to be more, I want you to know how it feels to have sex and mean it, that’s why I left cause I know if I didn’t it would have led to something we both would have regretted in the morning.”

I couldn’t look him in the eye as the words escaped his mouth, he wanted me to know it meant more, he wants more, he feels something about me; he cares.

“You should have stayed; I wanted you next to me.” I whispered “I know I am sorry.” Before I could tell another word his lips meet mine, the warmth of his lips sends a shiver down my spine, he bites my lower lip asking for entrance, I was too much in his trance to deny him, his tongue dominated over mine as the butterflies grew, he pulled me closer by waist as he deepened the kiss, my head was spinning, I was breathless yet I was too greedy to let go of him. Finally we pulled away, he lay his forehead on mine as we tried to regain our breath, his eyes never loosing contact with mine “I will never leave; I promise.” He whispered.

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