Something About You (Harry Styles fanic) *EDITING*

chapter 39

“Cheating and lying aren't struggles; they're reasons to break up.” 

― Patti Callahan Henry, Between The Tides

Sam’s point of view:

He is going to leave. Harry is going to leave in a week and there was nothing I could do to stop him. I hate being without him, I don’t want him to leave. I want him to stay here with me and be with me, but he doesn’t belong to me. I want to push these selfish thoughts and give him my support and tell him its fine by me. He loves his job and I don’t want to hold him back but the thought of being alone scares me.

“How long are you going for?” my voice is barely a whisper “A month.” There is some sort of sadness attached to his voice but he has no right to be sad. He isn’t the one who is going to be all alone here, I am.

“Okay.” I turn away and move further away from him. It feels colder without his arms around me.

I know I should have showed him my support, told him how it is okay for him to leave and it’s all going to be okay. But I know that would just lies.

“Sam I am really sorry but it’s my work you know it’s what I have to do.” Harry reaches out for my arm but I just move away. I hear him sigh and move away from me.

I know he can’t do anything even if he wanted to but it just hurts to think that I am going to be alone for a whole month. That’s when I realize how selfish I sound. Yes I am going to miss him but I can’t stop him from living his dream. I see how happy he is when he is on stage or just interacting with his fans. I am such an idiot.

 I turn around to see harry facing the other way my heart tells him to pull him closer and sleep in his arms but my head.......my head tells me to stay exactly where I am. I sigh and turn away maybe listening to my head was the right thing to do even if it didn't feel like it.

I wake up the next morning to an empty bed. I walk down hoping to see my loving boyfriend cooking something but he is nowhere to be found I frown when I see the note on the counter.

“Left for the studio earl, be back in the evening. Breakfast is already made don’t forget to have your pills. –

Harry”

I frown when I see no love mentioned on the note. I knew harry was still upset with my reaction but how did he expect me to react? He knew how much I hated being alone and how I was the one who was going to be left behind when he is out there having fun.

I smile when I open the dish to see my favourite pancakes with my pills on the side, this why I am going to miss him so much. He is such a sweetheart that even when he is mad at me he still doesn’t forget to do these little things that make my heart melt. I am so accustomed to having harry around that I know that when he leaves it will feel like a big part of me is missing.

I know only one person who will know exactly how I am feeling right now. I pull out my phone and text el asking if she is free. She texts me almost immediately telling me that she is and we make plans for a good lunch.

I eat my pancakes and decide to go through my twitter. I go through my mentions and notice a lot of tweets from the fans; I laugh at some who send me the pervy tweets and reply back to some. Some fans were being rude but I chose to ignore it. I spent the next few hours just interacting with the fans; they were such nice girls telling me how lucky I was to have Harry.

As I talked to them I realized what an idiot I was being. Harry was living his dream and me being the selfish person that I am I didn't put his needs before mine. I should have showed him how proud I am of him but no I sulked around making the guilt grow in him. I text el telling her that I will meet her in the evening; I have a few mistakes I have to amend.