Russell Howard Fanfiction - Love At First Laugh

Chapter 8 - The Truth Has All Come Out Now

Y/Ns POV

Cerys' secret pondered my mind for the next couple of days. I just couldn't believe that Russell was a dad. A dad with a child that isn't mine. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't concentrate on anything else. If I told him, he might be mad because I kept it from him, but if I don't, he could be more angry when he finds out that I knew all along! Even so, when the baby is born, what will that mean for me and Russell? I couldn't imagine myself looking after Russell and Cerys' Child! He probably won't even want me after that. He will have spent so much time with Cerys that he won't bother with me, and he'll go back to her. I feel so cruel, just thinking of myself. At the end of the day, his child has priority over me. What about the Baby? What will happen to it? Will it live here or with Cerys? My mind went numb from all these thoughts. I have to tell someone.

Russells POV

I don't know what's happened. Ever since Y/N came back from seeing her friend she's been ... off. Not herself. I'm so used to the happy, hilarious her and I guess I've never known her to be like this. She hasn't spoken much, only when I ask her a question and she's been up in our bedroom for most of the days. She hasn't gone out and she's hardly eaten. I'm really worried. Did something happen that day? Or is it .... me? Am I the problem? Is she breaking up with me? Oh God! She can't be surely? Have I been oblivious to what she's feeling? I need to ask her. Now.

I ran up the stairs and into our bedroom where Y/N was sat on the bed staring into space. "Hey" I said. She snapped out of her trance and looked up at me. I sat down next to her on the bed feeling stiff because of the tension. "Y/N ....... You're not breaking up with me are you?" I said as my voice wobbled slightly. She looked at me and said "No..... I was actually thinking that you would break up with me". She burst out crying into my shoulder. I wrapped my arm around her upper back to comfort her. "Now why would I do that?"
"I've been such a bad person!"
"No you haven't"
"Russell ...."
"Y/N I love you and ..."
"Russell you're going to be a dad!" She shouted and carried on bawling into my shirt. I froze. I didn't realise that ..... I mean ... I'm happy but.... "You're Pregnant?"
"No ... Cerys is!" She removed herself from my chest and looked at me with tear stained eyes. "She's pregnant with your baby Russ".
"What .... how do you know that?"
"I lied to you Russell, let me explain"
I looked at her red eyes and wet cheeks and nodded.
"So when I said that I was going out with a friend the other day, I lied. I was meeting Cerys. She messaged me and told me to meet her because she had something important to tell me about you. So I met her. She told me that she was pregnant and you were the dad. I didn't believe her but her stomach was round and she had a positive pregnancy test. I didn't know what to do Russell! She told me not to tell you because she wanted to tell you herself but .... I just needed to let it out because these past few days I have been freaking out so much about it. What will happen to us Russell? I don't want you to leave me!"
She began crying again. I hugged her and said "We'll sort this Y/N. I will never leave you. If it really is my baby then .... we can work through this ok, but I will not leave you" Y/N stopped crying and looked up at me. "You mean that?". "I mean it".

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I couldn't believe it. I'm gonna be a dad. But I don't want to be. Not with Cerys anyway. I will love and care for the baby obviously because it is still mine. I just wish it was Y/Ns too. I want to get married and start a family with Y/N someday, but now this has happened, I will be surprised if she will stay with me. I just don't understand how this could have happened. I felt confused at everything that was going on.
I decided to ring Cerys because she deserves to know that I know, and I also want to talk about it.

On the phone
"Hello?"
"Hello ... it's me, Russell" ( A/N Hello, It's me. I was wondering if after all ....)
"Oh hi Russell! Why did you call?"
"I know about ..."
"Oh. Y/N said she wouldn't ..."
"She's really distressed by it"
"Oh I hope she's ok" . This confused me, Cerys was never like this.
"Yeah ... so how many months are you?"
" 4 months. That's why you may not have noticed the bump as much"
"Oh ok. So....um"
"We will work this out Russell. It will be ok. As long as we work together and support one another we will be fine". This is definately not like Cerys. We talked a bit more about the Baby and what we will do about it. We agreed that she would come over tomorrow so we can talk more, with Y/N.

Even though I thought talking to Cerys would help, it left me even more confused. So I then decided to ring the person who gives me the best advice. My mum.

On the phone
"Hello Russell my Prince! You're dad's out at the moment so it's just me. How are You? "
"Not great to be honest mum"
"Oh ... What's wrong?"
"I'm gonna be a dad"
"OH MY GOD! Y/NS PREGNANT?! I'M GONNA BE A GRANDMOTHER"
"Wait wait mum I've only been with her for 3 months! It's not Y/N ... it's Cerys" The phone went silent. I dread to think what was going through my mums head.
"Wait ... Cerys? You didn't cheat on Y/N did You? "
"No no Mum! It must have been when we were together"
"How many months is she?"
"4"
"And you said that you've been with Y/N for 3 months?"
"Yes why?"
"Russell you were single for at least 5 months after you left Cerys. If she is pregnant it isn't yours!"
"Holy shit mum you're a genius! That means she lied to us! I'm not the dad and she knows I'm not!"
"I told you I never trusted Cerys! Now go and tell Y/N! She's probably stressing out of her mind the poor thing!"
"Thanks mum!"
"You're welcome, stay safe!"
Off the phone

Oh my god. I need to tell Y/N. Now.

A/N
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