The Broken Ones

Two Broken People

Song: Fragile -Kygo ft. Labrinth 

I was nervous. I was really nervous. Jessica wasn't here to help me because she was out, but she let me know that everything will go great. She had helped me get my clothes for my date, but I was nervous. I haven't had any experience in dating since it has been such a long time since I have dated. Sure, I did date when I was younger, but that was years ago. Being an adult now, things are different. I don't know what to do. It was almost ten and I had to get going. I looked at myself in the mirror, making sure I looked good. I was wearing a light blue knee high dress that flowed well. I had my hair in a nice stylish way, but I was rethinking if I should redo it. I shook my head. I need to leave. I checked and fixed a few more things before I got my keys and my purse before went down and left, driving off towards the park. 

I was nervous the whole way. I kept rethinking if I should take a U turn back and just not worry about it, but I know that Jessica will scold me and I will regret it in the end. Plus, I can't let do that to John. He is nice a guy. And so, I made it the whole way, parking my car in the empty parking lot because no one goes to the park at night. I got out and there, I looked around, looking for John. My heels were hurting my legs a bit as I walked around a bit. Finally, I spotted John sitting a bench, his gaze on a water fountain. "John." I say, announcing myself. He looked up and smiled. "Hey, I thought you ditched the date." He says as he stands up. I smile, shaking my head. Boy, I was close on doing that too. "No. I just had some wardrobe troubles." I say, coming up a with a lie. I then noticed that John was dressed in a dark blue button down shirt with dark jeans and pair of black Vans, his hair neatly done. Even though he worked at a movie theater, he did dress well. 

I also saw him look over me which did make me nervous. "You look beautiful by the way." John says. My cheeks then become warm and he grins. "Shall we?" He asks as he gestures towards the park. I nod. We then start to walk. Even though it wasn't typical first date thing, it still felt nice. It did remind me of my date with Alexander when he did take me to park, but I shook my thoughts of him. "So, tell me about you." John asks, his hands in his pockets. I then shrug. "Well, there really isn't a lot to say. I grew with my parents. Did good in school. My mom did die of cancer, but it was a long time ago. I did go to college, but unable to finish due to my mother's date. I like to read a lot. I love reading. And, my favorite color is blue." I say. I didn't tell everything. I didn't say anything about my marriage. "You read? What type of books?" He asks as we continue to walk. I then smile. 

"I like reading adventure books with romance and just the books that make me sad in the end." I say. He looked at me confused. "Really? You want to cry in the end." I chuckle. Sure, it sounded weird to say you want to cry in the end, but it made sense. "Yes. You see, reading is about the emotions you feel while you read. It's not just about the story, but about the emotions you feel towards the story and the characters. I want to read a book that will make me cry in then end and make me feel as if I didn't read it so I can read it again just to feel those emotions again. I want to cry and mourn over finishing my book. I just don't want read and in the end, I feel nothing because it wasn't a good book." I explain to him. John looked at me with this look in his eyes. "Do I sound like a nerd?" I ask which then makes him laugh a bit. He shakes his head, composing himself. "No. It's just that, I never a girl who loved reading as much as you do. You just looked like a girl who loves beauty and not books." He says. 

I shrug. I do love beauty, but not a lot. Reading is my love. "Can I ask you something?" He asks. I nod my head. "Well, when we met, you mentioned you were married." He asks. I then went tense up. He was bringing up Alexander. I can't blame him though. I did tell him about it, so of course he will ask questions about it. "How long were you guys dating and how were you married?" He asks. I sigh, looking down. "We dated when I was twenty two. We were married five years. And it has been two years since the divorce. It has been a long time." I say. I look and see him just continue walking. "He cheated on you. How did you find out?" He asks. It did pain me to recall all of the memories, but it was good to let it out and not keep it all in. "I found out from a friend of his. It was weeks after the divorce." I say. My heart ached a bit. "I'm sorry if I am making you sad. It's just that, I was curious and it was the only thing we did talk about when we met." He says with a regretful look.