The Broken Ones

Halcyon Days

Song: Hero by Family of the Year

Shoutout to: myblinkheartbp

Going to work, I did keep replaying the whole conversation Alexander and I had. Jessica did freak out a lot about it. After our conversation, we did discuss further about it. She was able to help me out a bit further on it. She does keep questioning a bit on why he did it but then she eventually shakes it off. Jessica and I went to work, Jessica telling me that she will probably be out late again. Just not as late as she was before. Jessica did tell me a bit more about this Brandon guy, giving me more insight into him. I am just happy that Jessica is starting to get her happy ending. I am still a bit worried though that she won't go further with the guy due to what happened to me. She does mean a lot to me though. I don't want her to slow down or be cautious about being in a relationship. She does deserve to be happy though. And I know Brandon is making her happy.

The only thing I do want to do is actually meet the guy. She has been keeping this guy such a mystery to me, I have been very curious about how this guy looks like and how he is in person. As I friend, I just feel like I should know at least how the guy looks like but I can also understand that Jessica wants to keep him a bit private until she knows she is serious about him. Either though, it's good she is starting to form a love life unlike me. Of course, the Alexander problem isn't going to go away until he goes away. The kiss is still running through my head a bit. I just wonder what he thinks about it. He probably regrets it.

It was all I could think about while at work at the flower shop. Sarah did ask me what was on my mind and all I said was that I was just thinking about something about Jessica which wasn't entirely false. Sarah already has a busy life and I didn't want her to worry about me. She already worries about the marriage I had with Alexander. I don't want her to worry about this too. The flower shop actually wasn't that busy for once like it was before. It is probably because it is Sunday and people actually have a lot of things to do. Jessica is at work and she did tell me she was probably going to stay overnight at Brandon's which I am fine with. I can't really say anything about it though. That is her choice. And I didn't have any surprises though which I am happy about it. I don't think I would be able to handle any more surprises. I did enjoy my time at the flower shop though. It felt nice for once. I embraced every moment I had at work, enjoying the scent of the flowers around me and I enjoyed the city noise around me. It felt nice for once to be in a calm environment. I enjoyed every bit of it. There really wasn't a lot to hate about being at work. Although I was a bit consumed by the thought of Alexander a bit, I was able to become distracted by it and think about something that actually doesn't make me hate life any further.

As the day was going to an end, I helped Sarah clean up the shop and close it down. After settling everything down, I said goodbye to Sarah and towards home, not really wanting to take a detour to the park. Not after everything that happened. But as I looked through a small coffee shop, I decided that a cup of coffee won't kill me. Plus I know that Alexander won't be in such a public place. Entering the coffee shop, the aroma of the coffee hit me instantly engulfing me once the door shut. Looking around, I saw that there are quite a lot of people in the cafe, most of them with sitting with someone and some sitting with a laptop in hand. The place was also mostly woodsy. On the walls, photos of nature hung around, the sound of indie music flowing throughout the cafe, filling my ears that did make me a bit calm. I walked forward, looking at the large menu hanging on the wall, giving me several options for coffee and tea. I feel in the mood for caramel and so I looked at the coffee that had the word caramel in the name. Once it was my turn to order, I told the lady what I wanted, also grabbing a cookie while I was at it too, also wanting something sweet.

I sat down on a small table, fitted for two, and drank my coffee, not in a rush to go home. Through the window, I could see that it is dark outside, the street lights illuminating the streets, cars flashing by, giving that flash of light as well. It felt nice. Slowly sipping away at my coffee and eating my coffee, I looked around at the coffee shop, observing the people around me. Even though I am the odd one out of everyone in here, no one seemed to mind that. Everyone seemed deep into what they were doing, some of them looked like students doing their homework due to the books around me. They reminded me of my university days of going out to coffee shops to chill down and do my homework, entranced by the work I was doing. Now, I am all grown up and watching others do their work. It is very interesting to see everything that is going on. See how the world is still going on. Everyone's lives keep going on. As I sipped, people came in and others left. It is only 9 pm and still, people are so active.