The Broken Ones

Dead Flowers

Song: The Giving Tree- Plain White T's

I kept smiling today. Sarah could already tell what happened when she asked about the date and I just blushed. I hummed as I fix the flowers, cutting the stems and just making the flowers look presentable. "Sarah, that woman that ordered her flowers for the wedding is coming." Sarah says as she exits the back of the store were the main office stuff was. I groan. I really didn't like that woman. "What did she want now?" I ask her. Sarah sighs, looking a bit stressed. "She needed to change a few flowers and the colors. I guess her fiance disagreed on some things." She says. I again groan. Doing flower work is not easy. We made the orders, now we will have to ask the company who gives us the flowers to redue the order to order up more flowers. It's takes a lot of money and a lot of work. "This woman better stick with the flowers she orders now because the flower company has too much already." I say. Sarah nods. 

And so, work continued. I kept waiting for that woman to come back. Sarah was busy making more orders for other costumers, paying bills and such while I stood in the front of the store, helping the costumers out. John had told me he would come over at eight which was fine with me. As I was writing some orders down, the bell rung. I looked up and saw the woman dressed in a formal outfit. "Hello." I say. She doesn't smile. "I am here about the orders I made for my weddings and editing it." She says with no emotion. "Of course. I will get my boss and we can discuss this in the meeting room." I say. I then go and fetch Sarah. We came back, the woman still there. "Come along." Sarah says. The woman stays put though. "My fiance will be coming. He and I will be doing this together." She says. Sarah and I nod. "Of course." We waited, seconds later, the bell above the door rings again. My eyes widen and my heart stopped. No. It can't be. It can't be. The emotions came back. The sadness, the pain, and the feelings of hurt. I wanted this to be a dream. I wanted this to be a bad dream I would wake up from. It can't be him. Why? Why did it have to be him? Of course it would be him though. This woman and him seemed perfect for each other. But why him? Why now? 

I looked and saw the only and only, Alexander. 

He stood there, tall and still handsome. He looked so different though. His hair was still long and neat, just the way he liked it. He was wearing a suit though and he his chin was shaved clean. He also got bigger. He had more muscles then before. He also held this look in his eyes that I was afraid of. I wanted to cry. He stood there, and looked at me. I looked at his grey eyes that I used to love so much. My heart was aching and breaking. He was getting married. He had really moved on. And he is getting married. "Come on and follow me to the back." Sarah says, breaking my gaze from him. I looked down, my hands clenched, trying so hard to not break down. "Willa, are you okay?" Sarah asks. I look at here and nod my head, forcing a smile on my face. "Yeah." I lie. She nods and then we head inside the small meeting room. Ms. Johnson and Alexander sat across from us. I felt his eyes on me. I kept my eyes low though, not wanting to look at the memories. "So, what changes did you need?" Sarah asks. The woman spoke, her voice being strong, but emotionless. "My fiance and I wanted to changed a few flowers because they didn't fit with the decorations and the color because we had decided to change the color of the wedding." The woman said. I was angry. I was angry because Alexander was getting married again. He was getting married once again, but this time, with a woman who he truly loved. 

He had moved on and now, he was so far away. I didn't know him anymore. "Okay then. Well, we can make a new order, but it will cost a lot since we had already made the orders. But, We will allow you to get a small discount." Sarah says. The woman and Sarah discuss the whole flower things while Alexander and I sat there in silence. I didn't want to be here. I wanted to leave and just be in a deep dark whole and just forget this. To forget him. I tried so hard to hold back my tears. "Honey, do you think these will go with the decorations?" Ms. Johnson asks her fiance. Alexander looks at her and nods. "Yes." He replies back. She nods and they continue to talk. It took an hour to do everything. I was glad that we were finally. We went back to the front, my head still down. "Thank you, Ms. Johnson for shopping here. We will have your order on time. We will deliever the flowers on the day of the wedding if you like. If you need anything, please do call." Sarah says to the woman who just nodded. "Come on honey, we need to go." The woman says to Alexander looks at her. "I need to stay back. I need to discuss a few things with the owner." Ms. Johnson nods, giving a peck on his lips which me clench my hands harder. I was filled with anger. I was also filled with sadness. "I will wait in the car." She tells Alexander who nodded. The woman then leaves. Sarah then left back to her office. It was just me and Alexander. 

"Willa..." I shake my head. "I am glad you are moved on, Alexander." I choke out. "I hope you have a nice wedding. At least it will be with the woman who you really do love." I say. I then look up and see Alexander looking at me with this pained look. I hated seeing it. "Willa, I know you are angry, but can we talk?" He asks. I shake my head. "No, Alexander. I don't think that is good." I say. He looks at me and sighs. Suddenly, the bell rings again. I look and see that it's John. My eyes widen. "Willa!" He says as he comes. He then comes towards me, ignoring Alexander and he gives me a peck on the lips, surprising me. "I am sorry I am late, traffic was crazy." He says. I look at him and then at Alexander who was looking at John with anger. I shook my head. "John...I...I didn't even see the time." I say. He chuckles. He then finally notices Alexander. "Oh, I am so sorry! I didn't see you there. I am sorry." John says. Alexander looks at him and then at me. "It was nice seeing you again, Willa. I do hope we can talk again." Alexander says with a hard voice. He then turns around and leaves. I look as he leaves, the door being slammed in the process. I then sigh and look at John. "What's wrong?" He asks. I then hug him, the tears finally being let go. John rubs my back and comforts me. I cried hard. I hated crying. I hated that I was crying over him again. I hated that I was crying over a man who had really moved on and is now getting married. 

"He's back." I strain out. John pulls back and looks at me with confusion. "Who is back?" He asks. I wipe away my tears, trying to stop crying. "My ex-husband. He is back." John then had this anger in his eyes. "When? Where is he?" He asks as he looks at me. I shake my head, trying to comprehend everything. "He was just here. The guy who was just here. That was him." John sighs, rubbing my arms. "It will be okay, Willa. I promise everything will be okay. It's okay." John says. I just wanted to leave. I just wanted to go back home and lay in bed. I just wanted to forget. But I knew it would not help. He is getting married! He fell in love and is getting married. "He's getting married, John. He is getting married." I say as I look at him. John frowns. He then pulls be back in his arms, rubbing my back and saying comforting words, but it only helped a little because in reality, the man who I loved is getting married with another woman. He is getting married and will start a new life with her. 

He has forgotten about me and is now getting married. And I am here, crying over him. I must be going crazy.