The Broken Ones

Cold Hearts

Song: Intro(Slow) by Quinn XCII

Jessica did end up staying with Brandon so I did end up at an empty house when I came home. I did end up cooking some dinner also, just some noodle soup with vegetables. It wasn't anything new either when I ate alone. I didn't even eat the dinner table, I just ate in the living room, deciding to watch any random show that would entertain me. It has been a while since I have sat down and watched TV.  I was having a calming day so I just wanted to finish off by just watching some TV. It was relaxing to just be alone and eat while watching some shows. That night, I fell asleep peacefully, thoughts of tomorrow on my mind. 

A few weeks have gone by and things were again calm again. Jessica still hasn't introduced me to Brandon, but they have been meeting a lot more which I am happy and sad about because I do see her less. I did tell her about my encounter with Ethan and she did keep telling me about how I should talk to him and meet up with him but I just didn't want more complications to come into my life. I don't need a dating life right now until after Alexander's wedding which is coming up pretty soon. Sarah and I have been preparing a lot on that at work, trying to figure out a bit on the arrangements and trying to fit the colors together since the lady of the day have a lot of specifications on what she wants and she really doesn't want. And since we are new to doing such a big and famous wedding like this, we have been trying to make everything perfect so that once the day does come, nothing is ruined. We even ordered extra flowers just in case because flowers are flowers, they can look dead or just not good which we can't control, so having backups is important for us. 

I have been trying not to think that much about the whole wedding aspect of it. I tried not to think about how it is Alexander's wedding we are doing it for. I have just been trying to focus on just the flowers. And they haven't had any further meetings about it. Sarah has been updating them on it, telling them about anything we have been doing so that once the day does come, everything is settled. Alexander's fiance has been glad so far with everything we have been doing so we aren't that worried. We just want to end up in a terrible job because the fiance will probably say something about us that could ruin our business, so doing a good job will probably make is highly praised and the business will become more busy with other jobs. And Sarah and I have come up with a plan about the trip to the wedding since the fiance wants us to show up. We will arrive a day before the wedding so that we can still make it to the rehearsal dinner and set up the flowers there also and then stay the night to then wake up early and set up the flowers before the wedding starts up. 

Sarah also says that we will just meet at her place since the wedding is about an hour and a half away from where we are, so it will just be easy for her to drive us and we just set up at the hotel that the fiance has paid for us to stay at which is also the same hotel they will be staying up except, of course, their room will be fancier than ours. We are just staying in our own separate small rooms which is fine by me. I did also update Jessica on that also, asking her if she wanted to go but she insisted that she stay back because of work and Brandon probably wanting to spend time here at our apartment alone. Things have been good so far though. I also did stumble across Ethan again which was nice. We did talk a bit more and it seems like his business is starting up because of how things turned out with the meeting he had with the big business he had the day we had coffee. It's good that his business is starting to become big. He does deserve it since he does seem to be working very hard for it by the times I have seen him, all of which he was in a suit and busy taking calls and emailing people not that I minded. He does say he will be attending a special event as well soon which means he will be out of town for both a personal and business reason.  It is nice he also expanding out. He will probably someday become just like Alexander. 

And Alexander?

 He has been on the news more often lately. A lot of social media news has been trying to get as many details as they can on the weddings, people trying to figure out how big the wedding will be and who is going to attend the party, most of them being rich people. It just seems like a lot of people really want to either attend the party or be the first to the details. Alexander being a long time billionaire though, he is able to keep most of the wedding plans as a secret. As the days come closer to the wedding, the more I do become worried and anxious because this is such a big step for me to see my ex-husband move on with someone else. But that day was going to eventually happen either way. I know that he would eventually move on and do something like this. I just didn't want to think so. I will admit it though, I guess it is good that he did move on. Even though I loved him so much, he does at least deserve to move on at least, right? Yes, he did break my heart and lit it on fire all while stomping on it but he does still deserve to move on and be happy rather than suffer even though I would like that to happen. Going to sleep though, I did think more about him like I used to. How things used to be and how happy I used to be. It's just probably that I am still working on moving on. In the end, though, I do eventually think about the night everything came crashing down. When he came home and told me he wanted a divorce. And that look he gave me when I said goodbye to him, having no reaction from him at all. I have done a lot with my life through all by myself without his help or money.