The Broken Ones

Tied Down

I got ready for work as always and left, Jessica already at work. I had planned to skip my break today just in case Alexander had decided to go the diner again. When I got there, I had instantly went to Sarah and asked her if I could be left out of the wedding flower business with Ms. Johnson and I could just work and take care of the store. She told she was fine with that as long as I helped her deliver the flowers. I agreed. As long as I didn't have to talk or see Alexander, then I will totally be fine. But, I know that I still will have to talk to Alexander. He is getting married and I do have to get over that. It's just that...he moved on and now he is doing this. I just thought that he would have just have dated several woman or be with several woman, but marriage? I didn't think he was going to go full out and get married. I had just barely started to date after two year and he is going to get married. Maybe it was wrong that we got married. Maybe we were just not meant to be from the start. I mean, he has changed so much. He doesn't love me and I do still love him. I always will. But, he his true colors have fallen. He is not who I thought he was. He is a different man, I man who I don't know. That is just a down side to people changing. You don't know who they are anymore.

I had kept my mind off of Alexander, making myself busy by cutting the stems of the flowers and organizing them, wrapping them up with the plastic wrap to make a bouquet of flowers. Men tend to go for those when they need flowers for their loved ones. We do also offer for our costumers to pick out the flowers so they create the bouquet of flowers while we just put it together. Working has kept my mind away from Alexander and it was nice not having to worry. I didn't have to feel all the emotions and be sad or mad because I know that it's not even worth it. I was glad I had something to busy myself.

As I worked, the bell above the door rung and there stood John. I smile, putting the things in my hand down. "John, what are you doing here?" I ask as I go around the counter. There was only one costumer in here, an old woman who does come here daily so I didn't need to worry about being too busy to talk to John. John looked at me with a smile on his face. "I just came to check up on you. You know after everything that has happened." He says. I nod. It felt nice that he was worried about me, but he really didn't need to do this. "John, I am fine and you don't have to worry about me. I am fine and I can take care of myself. I don't need you to stress over me." I say. He shakes his head, wrapping his arms around my waist, pulling me close to him. "But, I want to. I don't want your ex-husband to be here and make you all sad. I hate seeing you sad." He says, his eyes full of worry, but also anger. I knew that John was also jealous that Alexander was now here and around me. "I am fine, John. You don't need to worry. I told my boss, Sarah, that I wouldn't be working with his wedding flower business, and when I do get involved in it, it will just be when I help deliver them on the wedding day which is only in a few weeks. I won't be talking or seeing Alexander anytime soon." I say.

He sighs, putting a hand on my cheek. I enjoyed his touch. But, it wasn't like when Alexander touched. I threw those thoughts away though, not wanting to think about him. "I just worry, Willa. He is your ex-husband and I am now kinda your boyfriend, so of course I am going to be worried. He broke you already and I don't want him to end up making you more into a broken mess. I have been trying to fix you, but with him here, I don't know how I can do that." I look him, wanting to tell them that I can't be fixed. Alexander will forever be in my heart. But, I didn't. I just looked at him and gave him a peck on his lips. "You are my boyfriend, John. Not a kinda. You are my boyfriend and you don't need to worry so much. As long as I have you, I can be happy. I don't need to be fixed though. You will need a lot of glue. I just need you to be here." I say. It was true. I just needed him to be here. I am impossible to fix, but as long as he was here, I can at least have all my pieces. I just didn't want John to be here and worry so much about Alexander. That is my job, not his.