This is actually for my best friend icantwritephanfic because i'm incredibly grateful to have her in my life. I wasn't exactly the person I am today a while ago. And I said some hurtful things back then but she's been there and stayed with me and gave me something that I will always be grateful for--she showed me Dan and Phil. Therefore this one shot is dedicated to her.
Also, I'm gonna say that I'm Dan and She's Phil in this particular one shot (However everyone knows that she's my Tyler Oakley and awesomemaddan is my Phil IRL) Also, this will be more like a friendfic not a phanfic bc I'm not shipping myself with her (LOVE YOU!!!!)
AU where Dan used to be a bad boy
Dear Phil,
I wanted to say thank you. Thank you for changing me. Showing me I was more than petty insults and higher than awful names.
I said terrible things to you, was a huge asshole to you. Yet, you stayed with me. That will always astound me. That you stayed. You didn't leave like everyone else did when I began taunting then with cruel and shallow words. I'd given you so many opportunities to leave me, to forget about me, to never speak to me again. So many reasons. But, for some reason, which I still cannot know why, you didn't abandon me.
That's what I'm thankful for. Because without you, your friendship, your kindness, your humor...I would be nowhere. I would be stuck in the same hole I had dug for myself, with no way out. But, just staying by me, you've pulled me out of the gigantic rut I had trapped myself in.
You showed me there was laughter when I could see nothing, you opened my eyes to something wider than my own personal problems. You gave me sunshine when all I could see was hazy black darkness.
You gave me youtube Phil, friends and people who constantly support me.
I don't know if you can comprehend this. You handed me a reason to smile Phil, a reason to wake up every morning. That's the most enormous, special gift anyone has ever given to me. That, but also your friendship. Your friendship was just, if not more, as big as YouTube. I had no one at that moment, I had driven everyone away from me due to my own stupidity. But not you. I thought I had lost you for a second there, I really did.
But for some odd reason, you stayed. And everyday I will and I am grateful that you stayed. Because without you, I might not be here today.
Without you Phil, without your friendship and you kindness towards me. I would be nowhere.
Love,
Dan
Idk if you guys understood all that but I think icantwritephanfic will get it all.
