My Darling ♥

chapter 13

his lips were soft and warm. he had planned on kissing me, I could tell. I didn't really like the thought of wiping my tongue all over his, but I could smell the mint scent coming from his breath.

he swiped his tongue across my bottom lip. my nose crinkled up and I pulled away. he looked unsatisfied with the sour look on my face.

"I'm sorry. what did I do? what's wrong?" he didn't take a breath in between each sentence, craming them together making it a giant blob of letters.

"It's alright. you didn't do anything wrong.. I just don't like people making out. I mean, I know everyone does it and It's not that big of a deal but I just don't want to swap siliva with some guy. It's just gross and I don't understand why people do it"

"Some guy?" he looked hurt. "I've known you for how long and now I'm just 'some guy'?"

"really? that's all you got out of that entire thing?"

"sorry, I couldn't ignore it"

"Josh, you're not just some guy. you mean a lot to me. I was just using an example"

"Oh okay" his face lifted a little bit but he was still sad.

"I'm sorry, I'm just not ready for that yet"

"I understand"

I took a deep breath after looking at him for a while, studying his face like it was a test. he was deep in thought, I'm pretty sure it was about me but as we all know, when it comes to guys, we can never truly know.

"Josh?"

"yea-" as soon as he lifted his face I planted my lips on his again. I moved closer to him, I was practically sitting in his lap now. he put his hands down low on my back to keep me from falling. I wrapped one arm around his neck as my other hand played with his hair.

it was a soft tangled mess when I was done with it, but he didn't seem to mind. that was one if the things I love about him.

wait! did I just say 'love'? no! I do not love Josh! I can't. I don't.

he hesitatedly licked my bottom lip again.

I slowly opened my mouth and he gracefully slipped in his tongue.

It's not as bad as I thought it would be. as our tongues slipped up and down, side to side my fingers went back to his hair.

the taste of mint came off his tongue mixing with my watermelon lip gloss. its not the most desirable taste.

I pulled away, we both panted. I blushed at the way he was smiling at me and I looked down.

with his middle and fore finger under my chin he gently brought my head back up and made me look at him. that beautiful smile never left his face.

"you're cute when you blush"

my cheeks reddened even more than before, if that was possible, and I tried to look down again but he wouldn't let me.