My Darling ♥

chapter 28

Lizzy's POV

I feel like crying all over again. I don't understand. ever since Josh asked me out, crying is all I seem to do.

Josh reminding me of my mother makes my need to cry worse. I know he didn't mean to but..

aaggh, I need to stop thinking about it. I'm going to go home, take a shower, do my hair, put my make up on, change my clothes and walk to school.

by the time I'm done with getting ready, school will be out.  .. I have one of two options. one: skip getting ready and go straight to school. two: stay home, watch movies and eat chocolate pretending to be on my period so my brother will get me more chocolate and stuff when he gets home. .. yeah, I think I'll stay home.

I need to think about things for a while. clear my head and try to figure out how I'm going to deal with the hunter situation.

I need to spend the rest of the day away from Hunter and ..

"wait, Liz!"

oh, No.

I froze. he ran up to me and stopped right in front of me. I hadn't realized how far I got until I heard his raged breathing.

I can't stand here and look at him while he tries to control his breathing. as good at sports as he was he was never great at running. me on the other hand.. track and cross country team, softball, cheer, soccer, volleyball, tennis, yoga, gymnastics, tumbling, dancing, swim. I can run two miles without breaking a sweat.

"I wanted to ap-"

"I'm sorry" I say quickly and run around him. I adjust my bag so it makes it a little easier to run and sprint ten blocks, until I get to my house.

when I get there my breathing isn't too bad. from all the crying my throat hurts so that made running a little bit of a challenge. I pulled out the key to my house and unlock the door. I walk in and place my bag on the floor next to the door.

I raided the kitchen for chocolate and candy and junkfood. when I was satisfied with my snacks I pick a few movies and settle myself on the living room couch.

after watching 'the lucky one' and 'titanic', i think me and hunter will be together but 'the notebook' and '50 first dates' tell me that me and Josh will be together.

why is dating so complicated? wait, No. it's only complicated because of the people that interfere and the drama that comes with them.

so let me rephrase my question. why are people so complicated?

why can't we just be paired up and forced to be together. it would be so much better. No choices. No liking. No love. No interferences. No drama. so much easier.

but life is cruel and mean. we never get what we want and that's just the way it is.

I was in the middle of another movie when I heard a key slide into the lock and turn, unlocking the door. my brothers walked through the door and put his keys back in his pocket.

"hey, what are you doing home early?" he asked and I said "I'll explain later" and patted the space next to me.

he sat down and furrowed his eyebrows when he looked at the tv. "are you okay?"

"yeah, fine" I say "why?"

"you're watching a chick-flick."

"so.?"

"you never watch chick-flicks"

"that's not true. it's mostly true but I watch them sometimes"

"do you need chocolate? .. and tampons?"

"chocolate, yes. tampons, No. I've got a big box of them" I say and he shakes his head.

"I really didn't need to know all the details" he said "do you want me to drive to the store? I can get chocolate and more junkfood. we can pig out and watch thrillers, action and scary movies"

"I love how you know me so well" I say and kiss him on the cheek.

"yeah, yeah. love you too" he says and stands up off the couch. "what kind of food and candy do you want?"

"hmmm... gummy bears, sour skittles, peanut m&ms, red vines, kettle cooked jalapeno chips, Red velvet cookies, takis, and can you pick up some pizza?"

"of course, we couldn't spend the rest of the day watching movies without pizza"

"you're the best"

"I know" he says "anything else?"

"No I think that's good"

"if we eat enough, maybe we'll get sick and stay home tomorrow so we can do it again" he laughs

"as much as I want to, one already missed one day and I can't afford to miss another"

"okay" he says, disappointed.

"I'll think about it" I say and he smiles.

"great"

he walked out the door and shut it. I heard his car door open, and close. he pulled out of the drive way and rode down the street.

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