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dear jiyun,

this is the first letter I'm writing to you.

taehyung gave me thirty days

only thirty days he said
should be enough

but I don't know if any time limit is enough

nothing has been
nothing I do is enough

enough to make me
forget you
who you were, what we were

so I just want to reach out
to you
are you still the same?
I wonder

the girl that looked happy even if she wasn't
for the sake of others
that put on a smile not to worry
anyone
that gave a glimpse of light
to those who needed it

me.

maybe you'll throw this away
the moment you hold it
in your hands

tear the paper apart forcefully
like you want my
memory erased

like your heart would feel
if it pained you that you're gone
away from me

and I'd understand,
you moved on
you must have
I don't hear about you
anymore

but I'm sick of talking
to these walls

and bottling my emotions up.

please don't be bitter over
our past

do not sigh in regret to what
you left behind
to what we had

don't despise my figure

I miss you more than my
bones can take

more than the ink can imprint

my whole body aches
at the thought of yours laying next to mine

your hair falling on
my shoulder
and your scent hypnotizing
every cell

captures all my senses

at the thought you're alright
sleeping in an empty bed

or with someone
else than me.

perhaps those feelings aren't mutual
and nostalgia is consuming only one of us

dreamer

but I see it's one sided

not lying to myself
just to
comfort my pathetic position.

I wish you're doing fine
and you deserve
the best

pleading,
keep this
as a cherish to what I used to mean to you

if I ever made you smile

if I empowered you
with hope

do not toss my love in the trash
once again

be safe.

I will see you again,

hoseok