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dear jiyun,

I'm here again to write
to you
and wish you
to be deeply happy.

think about it,

people throw these words
at each other's faces
frequently,

on birthdays
on Christmas
and Easter
and name days

acting excited
to see relatives
or old friends,

wearing plastic grins

and internally cursing for
having to be present
and buying decently expensive gifts,

hoping the buffet is satisfying.

how ridiculous it is
to be so pretentious,

not meaning half of the things
they say
and wanting to accomplish
half of what
they do
only to get something
out of it.

if I were to turn back time,
I'd only tell you things that represent my real thoughts

and make vows I'd keep

as the true meaning behind
anything that comes
out of your mouth,

honesty, frankness,

is supposed to be what
you really want
to say,

using words to express
your mind,
speak of
your genuine feelings

not 'cause you feel obligated
to make someone
feel good.

so at this point,

I would like to wish you
from the bottom of my heart
to be blissful

and to live the way you
want to,
the way that fulfills you with
passion for it

cherishing your choices
and decisions.

I want to be happy

even during the struggle
of getting you off my head

and you are worth of
feeling joyful and
complete

like I want you to be,

like I'd want you to be
if we were together.

they say every fresh start
needs a kind heart
and a lot of
forgiveness,

a new beginning
gets you thinking outside
of the box

I pursue it,
a new life,

without hurt,
petrify
and hauntings
of the past

and as much as I hope
that I'll make it
to get rid of
the suffering,

that's how I wish
you are doing
great
with
everything
you are up to.

soul clean and pure,
inner peace and serenity.

we both deserve a
shot with
happiness after all,

don't you think?

I will see you again,

hoseok