dear jiyun » jhs

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dear jiyun,

I can barely hold myself
in place

it took me a lot to get
out of bed
to sit here and start
writing

and I'm still not sure
of what I'm doing

or why,
that's something
I can't give you a clear answer to

but I'll keep my promise
this time,
I gave you my words
and I'll stick to all I've vowed.

my phone rang
and
it was yerin

I didn't expect that to happen,

she told me about you.

the moment your name
escaped her mouth
I wished
that she wouldn't tell me
about a new lover,

about something that'd
fuel envy inside me,

for a mere second
the thought that you might
want to see me
crossed my mind

and my face must've lit up
just by picturing her
saying the words.

jiyun,
my dear jiyun,

if I could make my wish again,

I'd alter it a lot

I wouldn't have thought of
myself,

the idea didn't even
reach to me
from the back of my head