dear jiyun » jhs

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dear jiyun,

days are going by
and this
improvised therapy

doesn't seem to work.

I thought writing to you
would relieve me
from missing you

miserably much all the the time,

yet my dreams are
still filled
with past images

and scenes that play
in my head
for the rest of the day.

I woke up in the
middle of the night
with racing heart

and sweat on my neck,
like I was running
in my sleep

catching my breath I turned
abruptly

and looked next to me,

the figure was gone.

a smoke like silhouette
sitting a heartbeat away
in the dream

had your contagious smile
written on its face,

staring
as if it was waiting for me
to say something.

opened its mouth,
I expected words
to come out
but only oxygen was breathed in

it placed a kiss
on my cheek

and I, unable to move
closed my eyes in fear

frightened at first,
before
the sensation
mimicked your
touch
remarkably alike,