dear jiyun » jhs

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dear jiyun,

from the depths of
my heart
I wish you to have
a good day

and to be as happy

as I am right now,

as psyched and grateful
to be on this earth

feeling like your insides
are colored
and that your eyes
are sparkling

your skin being illuminated
under the gentle
touch of the coy sun rays.

this moment,
we shook hands
and the man told me I'm
starting
from tomorrow

with a big grin on his face
as if he was excited
to have me
as an employee,

patting the back of my neck
giving out a warm
feeling

that I hadn't experienced in
a long time,

impatience
to start something new

filled with positivity,
looking forward
to making
a new beginning

even if it's this small

a change so little gave
me an ounce of
hope

to keep on going

motivation,
reminder

that I need to rebuild
the abandoned ruins
you left behind,

to not
give in to the absence

to the pain
it feels I'm sinking
into.

they say every starting point
is hard to face

and that it comes with
new difficulties
that threaten to break you
down
if you aren't courageous
enough

but when you're willing
to change your life
in a way
that fills you with
bliss

and gets rid of
the weights that keep you
stuck to the ground

all you should be afraid
of is your own
cowardice

and the urge to
surrender
when you're left
naked

in the cold.

you were the one who
taught me that,

when you gathered your thoughts
and listened to your
true desires

deciding to step out
of my life

and take a chance
to make a difference
and start
again,

dropping the obstacles
that were getting in the way
of your happiness

me.

my wish is that you succeeded
in turning my haunting
memory
into something new,

something that's beautiful

that causes your heart
to pound fast
at the thought of it
and gives you a genuine smile

making you feel alive.

I will see you again,

hoseok