TWENTY-EIGHT.
"So what happened next?" Joy the nephilim bitch asked when I stopped telling what really happened back then.
Fucking tears were falling from my eyes! Damn it, kaya ayaw ko sabihin e, because telling it will recreate the event and feel the pain again.
And it fucking hurts.
I tried running away from this pain for months, but it's slowly coming back, but with great force.
I glanced at Thean and Van, worried was all written all over their face, "It was because of us?" Van muttered then looked at Thean, he closed his eyes and put his palm in his face as if he's about to cry.
Thean looked at me, "Why didn't you tell us?" Sabi niya.
His eyes are teary, I just kept silent and wipe all the tears but it kept falling down in my face, like an inevitable raindrops.
"Kaya mo ginawa yun dahil lang naiinggit ka sa mga kapatid mo?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni Lora.
I glared at her and was about to chop her head off when Jenna spoke.
Tumayo si Jenna, galit na galit habang panay ang iyak, "Shut the fuck up, Lora! Wala kang alam! Inggit lang! Para sayo siguro inggit lang! Pero sa'min? Hindi mo alam ang pakiramdam!" Sigaw niya.
Charlie and Henri held Jenna in her shoulders as if trying to stop her from killing Lora. I closed my eyes as my tears fell again, I am trying to calm myself because if I don't, this fucking bitch will end up as a fucking dead werewolf.
"Hindi mo alam ang pakiramdam na ikaw ang anak pero parang hindi! Puro na lang si Van at Thean! Lagi na lang sila! Sila! Sila! Lahat ng ginawa namin mali! Sila ang magaling! Sila ang perpekto! Mahina ka sa paningin ng sarili mong magulang at sasabihin mo sa mukha ko na inggit lang! YOU FUCKING BITCH! WALA KANG ALAM!"
Galit na galit si Jenna, gustong-gusto niyang sugurin si Lora ngunit ay pinipigilan siya ni Henri at Charlie.
The room became silent, I continued crying as I remember Adam and his tears. All the things I made wrong. At ang pagiwan kay Adam back in Pennsylvania.
Natahimik si Lora, I saw that she got scared by Jenna's actions. I badly want to kill this stupid bitch.
Ken hugged me, I felt his tears in my neck as he repeatedly whisper the words "I'm sorry" in my ear.
No.
His sorry wasn't enough.
His sorry wasn't enough to take away the pain.
All of it wasn't enough to bring back Adam. To bring back the past.
"I'm sorry for leaving you. I'm sorry for not contacting you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything, Vanellope." He whispered as we both cried.
Hindi ko alam kung ano ba dapat kong maramdaman, hindi ko alam kung maaayos ko pa ba ang gulo na nagawa namin nila Jenna.
Hindi ko na alam.
All I want to do is cry because I don't know what to do.
And I fucking hate to admit but I am so damn scared. Since day one, I am so damn scared.
"Cody, how come? Nakakatanda ka sakanila. It's just..." Hindi matuloy ni Van ang sasabihin niya, he seems confused and stressed out.
"Now, you know the truth. What are we gonna do? I already killed the leaders. We can't do anything about it." I said as I clear my throat and wipe my tears away, even I, is clueless in what to do.
