Sailing Alone

Relationships

I don't know what I'm doing. Killing myself, perhaps? Whose bright idea was it to cram everything in two weeks? Oh, yeah. Mine. Ugh. Nakakapagod.

After the game we left for Palawan. My friends and I had the best time exploring the wonders of Palawan. They also did not miss the chance to experience the night life while we were there. It was definitely fun but it was just as tiring.

After Palawan, we flew to Boracay. We all went to a bar right after putting our things down just because they knew I wouldn't be able to join them for the following nights. We swam and bonded the next morning until afternoon. Then, I flew back here to Manila.

So here I am, finally in the comfort of my bed at 2am. I have just finished doing two late night interviews. I am expected to be awake at 5am to do morning shows interviews.

Yung totoo? Matutulog pa ba ako?

Nagulat na lang ako nang marinig ko ang alarm ko. Nakatulog pala ako pero parang hindi naman. I feel so tired. I feel like a zombie.

My day went on quite well. Interviews and appearances here and there. In between naman, I spent time with some of my friends. Breakfast, lunch, merienda, and dinner were spent with different group of friends. Then, I had midnight snacks and kulitan with Bea and Jho at Bea's place before going back home.

Buti na lang patapos na lahat. Last guesting na ang GGV tapos punta na ako sa airport to send my teammates off.

As expected, I was pretty much asked the same questions I've been asked before. Mas fun lang kasi mahusay magpatawa si Vice.

"Soooooo, may boyfriend ka ba ngayon?" tanong ni Vice.

"Wala po," sagot ko.

"Eh girlfriend?"

Nagflash yung picture ni Cameron sa screen sa likod namin. Natawa na lang ako ng bahagya.

"Uy! Wala akong alam diyan ah. Nagtatanong lang ako," ngisi ni Vice.

"Wala rin po. Best friend ko kaya yan si Cam!"

"Weh? Hindi nga?"

"Hindi po talaga. Promise," sabi ko ulit.

I've been asked countless times about my relationship with Cam pero wala talaga.

"Okaaaaaay," sabi ni Vice na parang hindi naniniwala. "Pero nagkarelationship ka habang nasa US?"

"Hmmn. I went on dates po pero walang naging official relationship," sagot ko ng nakangiti pa rin.

"Teka nga. Ano bang sexual identity mo?"

Nagulat naman ako. Bigla naman binawi ni Vice yung tanong.

"Joke lang. Wag mong sagutin yun!" sabi niya habang tumatawa. Medyo pilit na inaalis sa pagiging awkward yung atmosphere.

I smiled.

"I'm a queer."

Napasinghap at nagulat naman si Vice at ang mga tao.

"Wow! Welcome to the club! Sure ka?" biro ni Vice.

I laughed.

"Hindi pa naman ako nagkakarelationship sa hindi guy pero I wouldn't mind if it happens. Kasi for me, love knows no gender, race, or economic status. If I can find someone who will love me and I will love completely, kahit babae pa siya o lalaki, that would already be perfect."

"Tama naman! So okay lang sayo na i-date ako?" taas-babang kilay na tanong ni Vice.

"Oo naman! I wouldn't mind dating another girl nga diba?" sabay kindat ko.