Drag Me Down (h.s.) EDITING

What Does The Future Hold, Styles?

I woke up with a slight headache and a body draped halfway across my own. I squinted against the harsh light coming from the bay windows across the room as I turned to look at the sleeping body beside me. His hair was a mess around his face but the look he wore was pure bliss. I wanted to stay in this moment forever. I smiled as I remembered him saying, I love you more, as we were drifting off to sleep in the early hours of morning. I lightly ran my fingers over the arm he had draped across my naked stomach. I felt his arm give a slight twitch as he began to come around to consciousness. He squeezed me tightly and pulled me against his chest with a smile.

"Please tell me it wasn't a dream." he whispered in my ear.

"If it was a dream I would have to say it was the best one I've ever had." I said as he trailed light kisses over my jawline. I sighed in contentment. This is what I had waited for, for so long. There was still doubt and worry worming its way in but I hoped it would be gone soon.

A loud knock on the door had me practically jumping out of my skin. Harry chuckled and pulled the blanket up around my chest.

"Come in." I said after making sure I was sufficiently covered. Zayn entered with a hand over his eyes.

"Are you decent this time?" Zayn questioned as he peeked through his fingers and came to an abrupt halt. His mouth fell open as he stared. I was a little surprised he wasn't aware that Harry was here. His Range Rover was in the driveway. I stifled my laughter as Harry gave me a puzzled look. I forgot Zayn had flipped shit when he say me in my underwear.

"I'm covered." I gave him a wide smile.

"Mate, Lilah is looking for.. I didn't even know you were here. I should have recognized the Range Rover." Zayn said face palming himself. My heart dropped. Why would Lilah be looking for him. They didn't live together did they? I turned to see Harry maneuvering himself to slip on his clothes from last night. I held the blankets closer to my body feeling more self conscious than I ever had.

"Bloody hell. I forgot. I'm supposed to be at an event she's throwing today." he was already pulling on his shoes. I watched as Zayn slowly back out of the room looking worried. I would have to thank him later for his silent departure. I sat up in the large bed pulling the blankets around me as I watched him shrug on his jacket. I felt lost. I knew he was still with Lilah. I had known that last night when I let one action after another happen. The reality of the situation had been pushed to the back of my mind. I had waited almost three years to tell this man that I loved him. A million thoughts were assaulting my mind.

I was so lost in my thoughts I hadn't felt Harry take a seat on the edge of the bed beside me. He cupped my cheek and turned me to face him. I hadn't noticed the tears that had escaped.

"Oh, love. I'm so sorry. I didn't realize what this sounded like to you." Harry said as he pulled me against his chest. He hauled me into his lap and wrapped his arms around me. I felt slightly self conscious since the only thing I wore at the moment was my panties.

"It's stupid. I'm not really upset. I don't know why my eyes are leaking." I said as I sniffled and crossed my arms over my naked chest. He smiled and leaned his head into the crook of my neck. He inhaled deeply and kissed my neck. I shivered in his arms and he held me tighter.

"You'll have to give me time. I will break it to Lilah that we no longer can see each other. You're the one I want. You still know that, don't you?" Harry asked as he  lifted his head to look me in the eye as he spoke.

"I know.. It's just, I don't know, there seems to always be a barrier in the way." I whispered and cast my eyes down. I didn't like to voice my fears out loud. Especially about a girl he'd been seeing casually for weeks now. A girl I had personally met who was unaware of the tangled history of myself and Harry. I hated that she was, unknowingly, caught in the middle. My need to be with Harry outweighed my sympathy for her though. I felt like shit about it but it didn't change the fact I wanted him to myself.

"Nothing will stop us from being together. I have a few things of my own to work out. I love you and only you. Now, I have to make an appearance at least. I will be back later to get you so we can do something dumb and touristy that I know you like." he said has he sat me back on the bed. I watched as he walked out and shut the door behind him.

I laid down and pulled a pillow over my still bare chest. I would have to get up and go explain to Zayn. I didn't want to have the inevitable conversation about Harry and myself. I didn't know what was going on so how would I tell anyone else. How would I explain that we loved each other but couldn't be together right now. Harry would have to break things off with Lilah before anything could happen. He said he wanted to be with me but what if he changed his mind. What if Lilah could make him happier. I groaned loudly and threw my hands over my face. I wanted to shut my brain off. I was doubting everything before it even began. Only time would tell.

I got up and pulled on a pair of leggings and a t shirt to go talk to Zayn. One step at a time.