spacenames- phan chat room AU☆

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Dan had always considered himself a reasonably good actor. So when he acted like he fell asleep, he had high hopes for it to work.

It did.

He lay awake, staring at the ceiling for who knows how long. He wouldn't be able to even get an ounce of sleep if he tried. You couldn't necessarily blame him, he was about to go through a life or death situation.

Dan contemplated whether he made the right choice. If he had just given everything a few more days, Phil would have come back to him, and color would've been brought back to his world again.

But Dan was impatient, and tried to end it before his rainbow could reach him.

I'm an idiot. He thought, tugging at his hair. Before he knew it, he was crying. He tried his best to stay quiet so he wouldn't wake Phil, but it got to the point where he was covering his mouth, almost as if he was trying to push his small sobs back in.

Naturally, it didn't work. In fact, it made it worse. For a moment, as Dan's hands were cupped around his mouth in an attempt to keep quiet, it only created a slight echo, making his cries louder.

Phil jumped in his sleep, and Dan froze. When Phil's eyes started to flutter, Dan immediately closed his eyes and tried to make his breathing steady, playing it off like he was sleeping.

But Dan knew Phil. There was no purpose in pretending to sleep at this point. Dan felt a hand lightly shaking his shoulder.

"Dan? Hey, Dan.."

He reluctantly opened his eyes to look right back into Phil's pretty blue ones.

"Ye-yeah?"

"Were you crying?"

Dan closed his eyes again, but not to pretend he was asleep, but to curse himself silently.

This is what I get for being pathetic.

"Nothing. It's nothing." Dan replied quietly, but with each word he spoke, the lump in his throat seemed to get larger, and it took all of his willpower not to break down right there.

"Are you sure?" Phil asked, an unconvinced look on his face.

"Yea-"

Dan couldn't even make out a full word. He was so choked up, he felt like he couldn't breathe.

"It's okay to cry, you know." Phil stated, and that was all Dan needed to hear before he completely let himself go.

He cried for awhile, holding onto Phil tightly, clutching his shirt with his hands. His tears soaked Phil's shirt, and as he felt a little bad about that, he didn't pay much mind to it.

Dan didn't remember when Phil crawled into the now comfortably cramped hospital bed with him. But he did remember feeling fingers lightly stroking his hair.

As it helped, it still didn't seem to be enough. Dan still cried, quietly sobbing occasionally. But that was before Phil started singing.

So yes, it was a bit croaky. Yes, Phil wasn't exactly the best singer on earth. But it was comforting. It was gentle. It was loving. It was just what Dan needed.

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy,
When skies are gray.
You'll never know dear,
How much I love you.

Oh please don't take my sunshine away.

Phil quietly sang until Dan was asleep, which took a little longer, but he didn't mind. He wanted to stay like this forever. Dan, wrapped in his arms, cuddling with him and still, after the hour of crying, clutching onto his shirt.

He wanted to sing and comfort him forever, for the rest of his life. Phil never wanted to be taken away from Dan.

He never wanted Dan to be taken away from him.

He lightly kissed the top of his boyfriends head before falling asleep himself, both boys comfortably close on the small hospital bed.

But as Phil was falling asleep, he seemed to only have one sentence on his mind. One he couldn't seem to forget.

Oh please don't take my sunshine away.

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A/N:
hey remember that spacenames chapter i made awhile back when they're messaging about how Phil's gonna have chris and pj over and they were like "well i don't want them to take my phil away" and "well i won't let them take me away from my dan"

idk what percent it is but this chapter reminded me of it.

qotd: favorite childhood nursery rhyme?

aotd: the suNshine soNg it's so cuTe and sAd

~blu🌙