Depression Hit Me Hard

2: Karma

Pretty much, everything that happened to me starts from here. My greatest experience that sends shivers down my spine every time I remember about it. It all started during my Math lesson. Alfie is in the same class as me for this one. He even sits right next to me! Oh how I thought I finally had it all. The past few lessons was fine, including staring at Alfie for like, the whole time during that period. Oh it felt so heavenly.

"Oh come on Ally. Who's your crush? Finn? Isaac? Hugo? We promise not to tell anyone. Come on, just tell us," Nick and Brienna said dryly after school watching me putting books into my locker curiously. And because I wanted to stop their desperate questions about who my crush is, I told them truthfully. Like how a true friend tells secrets, right? After I told them, Brienna starts to get all excited.

"Omfg Ally! His name starts with 'A' and yours too," she exclaimed and winked.

Err. It made me feel so uncomfortable. Can someone kill me now? His best friend is just beside her for God's sake!

I made them promised not to tell anyone, especially him. Guess I shouldn't have freaking trusted them.

Don't get me wrong though, they are good friends. Just that, sometimes they can't keep secrets to themselves. Yes, they definitely is a good couple. Both of them just can't seem to get their mouth to shut up about all these rumors and stuff. Sometimes they come in handy in case people start making fictitious rumors about me but most of the time, they make my life miserable. The bad news? Nick is Alfie's best friend. Oh wait, shouldn't it be a good news? Brienna is my only friend and her boyfriend is my crush's best friend!

OMG!!

See now? This is one of the reasons why I don't want to have friends and would rather hang out alone. It's too confusing for me. Even though I have like only one friend, it already confused me! Anyway, guess what they did.

Yup.

They told him and a few of their friends about me having a crush on him.

Just like that, I lost all their trust.

Not really all though. They are the only living things I don't mind living with, even though I'm dying trying to get away from them sometimes.

I thought things would still be normal after that. But hell, how I wish I was right. Alfie stopped acknowledging me and whenever I am near him, he will go far away. He avoided me and he never met eye-contact with me, like how he randomly does and smiles at me when he realizes I'm staring at him, and it would make me melt straight away. But now, let's not expect that happening anymore, Ally. That douchebag. I liked him for about 5 months, and woah I realized I'm wasting my time on some a-hole.

All this time though, a guy from my class had a crush on me. His name? Mason. We were friends until the day he sent me a text message which is probably shocking because I don't think anyone would ever have a crush on me. Like seriously. Anyway, it goes like this.

Mason: Hello. There's something I have to tell you. I umm... have a crush on you. I don't know why, but I just do. I know you'd never expect this but uhh yeah.

I didn't bother replying because I was too shocked and didn't know what to do. Just like that, my hatred for him grew. I'm this type of girl where even though you're my friend and I was okay with you previously, if you have a crush on me and I didn't feel the same way towards you, then I will avoid you for the rest of my freaking life. And I mean it.

I don't know why though. I'm not the only one so I guess that's pretty normal.

Then, I realized. This is exactly the same way as what Alfie did to me. He avoided me exactly how I avoided Mason. Is this actually Karma? If it is, well that bitch surely slapped me in my face real hard.