Depression Hit Me Hard

21: What Do We Do Now?

"Oh my God I really don't know what to do right now. I'm literally going to flip out," Emma said worriedly.

It has been thirty minutes and she has been pacing around her room ever since we got to know the results. So basically this is how it went:

I took a deep breath and looked at the results. I mumbled an 'oh my God' before revealing the news to Emma. I don't know how she is going to take the news, and that scares me. Anything could happen after I tell her.

"Emma, you're -" I said slowly but was interrupted by her.

"Pregnant. I fucking knew it! I knew it. Now what am I going to do?!" Emma started pacing around the room, glancing at me from time to time, hoping that I would come up with an idea.

I shook my head.

"You're not you idiot! You're not pregnant! Look!" I literally jumped up with joy and held my arms out wide to hug her and at the same time showing her the results.

I bet you are wondering then, so why is Emma so stressed out and pacing around the room so much? Well, this is why.

"I'm so embarrassed," she whispered as she let go of me.

It was so sudden and that reaction was definitely not what I had expected.

"Embarrassed because.... you're not pregnant? This doesn't make sense, isn't that what you wanted?" I was confused at this point, just as confused as you are right now.

"Not just because of that Ally. I...um..." She slowly turned to look at me and took a deep breath.

"Damon and I were fighting at that time and I called my childhood bestfriend who is a guy because I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to disturb you because I know that the things you're dealing with are far more greater than mine and I didn't want to add on to your burden. Anyway, my childhood bestfriend came to my house and we started talking about my problems and we got drunk and one thing led to another..."

"You had sex with him?!?" I was half-screaming at this point.

I do not know whether to be hurt because Emma did not confide in me, or to be hurt because of the fact that my bestfriend is hurting and she screwed up big time. Just as I had thought everything would finally be alright, problems like the 'cancellation of the project' and 'Emma slept with another guy' of course, had to occur.

"The night before Damon and I fought, we had sex without protection. The day I slept with my childhood bestfriend? That was without protection as well. That's why I was so afraid when I thought I was pregnant," She whispered, just barely loud enough for me to hear.

"Emma I thought you knew better! Didn't the sex education teach you anything at all?"

"I'm sorry I really am. Ally you need to help me! Oh God I feel like such a slut," She said as she wiped away her tears.

"Now what do you want to do? Are you going to tell Damon about this?" I asked.

"I-I don't know. Damon and I are not fighting anymore and I'm afraid that if I tell him, he'll... break up with me." Emma hesitated a little before the word 'break'.

"We'll think of something, don't worry okay? If he really loves you he will forgive you. But just a warning though, it might take some time for him to cool off. Afterall, this shit is pretty screwed up."

"I can't believe I did this, I thought I was better than this. What's wrong with me," She covered her face again, this time crying louder.

I gave her another hug, but this time it was a sad hug. Well at least Emma is not pregnant, that is something I do not have to worry about anymore.

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"Hey baby girl," Luke climbed into my window but I was too caught up surfing the internet to notice. I was on Google, in the midst of typing 'How to tell my boyfriend I slept with another guy without protection', but when I saw Luke, I quickly opened a new tab and muttered a 'hi'.

"What's up? Is everything alright sweetheart?" He sat next to me on my bed and faced me, trying to read my facial expression.

"Yeah, everything's fine," I tried to give him a reassuring smile but I guess it failed. I was too stressed out and the only thing on my mind was my blades, but I do not think I will use them any time soon, considering my boyfriend is here with me, and that is definitely a good thing. Thank God for Luke's existence.

"What's that?" He pointed to the tab that I tried to cover up.

"That? Oh that's nothing," I said as I stared at the screen typing out the website to Twitter and not looking at Luke in hopes that he would not know I am lyi-

"You're lying. That's definitely something. I can see it in your eyes, you can't lie sweetheart."

Oh shit.

My heart was beating so fast. If I showed him, would he think I was the one who cheated on him?

Luke was getting impatient so he took my laptop away from me.

"How to tell my boyfriend I slept with another guy without protection.... what the actual fuck?" Luke turned to look at me.

"No it's not what it looks like! I would never do that. It's not me, it's.... it's someone else."

Luke took a deep breath and calmed himself down.

"Alright then, if it isn't you, then who is it?" He asked with a hint of a harsh tone. I must admit, he is starting to scare me a little.

"It's Emma," I muttered.

"She cheated on Damon? She would never do that, you're lying again. This is a joke, right?" Luke asked.

"It's not a joke Luke. I don't joke around with relationships, I take them really seriously," I sighed.

Luke sighed as well and ran his fingers through his hair.

"So how are we going to fix this? What's the plan?" Luke said while randomly placing his hands around my waist and pulling me closer to him.

"I don't know yet, I'm pretty stressed out right now."

We were both silent for awhile, and honestly I have never heard silence quite this loud.

"Wait babe..."

"What is it?" I turned to Luke.

"I think I got a plan."

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A/N: Hey guys! It's been awhile, and truthfully I started writing this book in 2013, when I was 12(almost 13). It's been 2 years so far and I pretty much forgot most of the plot but I'll do my best to keep writing this book for you guys! I'm so thankful for all the reads, can't believe there's over 29k reads now! Previously there was only 1.8k reads and I was already so happy but wow I never thought there would be more than 10k reads. Thanks for reading, you guys are the best :)

- Nadiah