If Only She Knew

Chapter 10: Affection

WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS MATURE CONTENT

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Mia's POV:

Last thing I remember from last night is that I fell asleep and woke up the next morning went to school with Justin and told him to drop me at my house after school and he asked if I'm sure about what i was doing inferring to me going back home and I said yes although I really wasn't sure but again I didn't want to upset my pregnant mother but anyway when I got back home my parents weren't home and I didn't think they'd be here anytime soon.

Surprising? Not really. I'm used to this bullshit.

Days passed and I stayed in my room all the time. I go to school and when I come back i go to my room immediately and just stay there. I don't eat properly and I guess everyone has been noticing that I've been losing a lot of weight. But the only good part about the past couple of weeks is that Ethan and I went out on a couple of more dates and he asked me to be his girlfriend. When I told mom about this she was so happy for me but when dad heard about the news he started shit again and of course I'd take everything to the heart since I'm a sensitive person.

I guess the problem here is that if dad doesn't like something specific he'd do whatever it is to destroy it. It's like he can't accept other people's opinions and ideas and that's what I hate about him. Everyone has a different opinion from the other so stop

Sometimes i wish I could disappear. Sometimes i wish i was never born so I can suffer this way. Sometimes I just feel like I'm losing my mind slowly and nothing can ever help me be normal again. Sometimes I laugh at myself for thinking that everyone in this world is good but most importantly I sometimes think that the world will be a much better place without me in it cuz I've brought nothing but sorrow and sadness to everyone around me.

I never imagined hurting myself and i remember when i was younger I asked why are there depressed people in this world? Like everyone should be happy and safe but yet I didn't see myself becoming like them.

I heard a knock on my balcony's door which made my eyes shoot open. I walked towards the door "w-who's this?" I asked

"It's me babe," Ethan said "open up, it's freezing outside"

I immediately opened the door wrapping my arms around his neck making him instantly wrap his around my body before I pulled him inside

"I didn't see your message till now i'm so sorry baby" he said pulling me closer to his body "I came as soon as possible"

I cried

"Hey, hey why are you crying?" He asked pulling away before he grabbed my face in his hand

"I can't do this" I cried

"Hey it's ok" he shushed me and rubbed my back "It's ok. I'm here"

"I just can't do this" I sobbed

He picked me up making me wrap my legs around his torso before he sat on my bed and rubbed my back, I felt his hot breath on my neck before a kiss was placed there "It'll be alright, I'm not going anywhere" I squeezed my arms around him not wanting to let go of him

Ethan's POV: (FIRST TIME OMG)

When she started crying I lost my fucking mind I couldn't see her like this so I pulled her into my lap and she snuggled her face into the crook of my neck as her tears wet my shirt. I rubbed her back comfortingly.

I wanted to do everything I could to make her feel better. But that's the thing, nothing can heal a broken heart but time.

I tried to calm her down by whispering soothing words into her ear. I held her for as long as she wanted. Her cries calming down to small sobs, which eventually turned into light sniffles. She kept her hands around my neck clenching and unclenching my shirt in her hands while I kept one hand around her waist,

"You're going to be okay," I whispered as I pulled her face from my neck. I wiped her tears with my palms and kissed her forehead.

She sighed shaking her head "I feel so pathetic right now,"

"No don't say that. Everyone goes through something in their lives and they don't know how to deal with things cuz they never went through anything like it so it's normal. Trust me, I know how it feels" I said remembering the position i was in a few years back

She stared at me her eyes begging for some affection. "I hate seeing you like this" I said

She looked down which made me lift her chin to look at me

I'd do anything to make her feel better literally anything. I didn't think twice before I smashed my lips against her

She kissed me back, the built up arousal forming between my legs. My hand massaged her hip in circular motions, while hers relaxed onto my chest. I let my tongue gaze her bottom lips as my hands roamed all over her back, she parted her lips, my tongue intertwining with hers.

A low grunt left my lips, our tongues swirling around each other. She lifted my shirt from my body, breaking the kiss for a second to return back to it. I pulled her close to me her body hovering over mine, my hands groping her ass over the fabric of her sweats.

My leg overlapped her as her body shifted so she was now under me. She wrapped her legs around my torso, pulling my shirtless body down on hers. Her arms snaked around my neck, my sweat pants almost off my hips.

I detached my wet lips from hers, then shortly after placed them on her neck. I kissed her hot skin, searching for her sweet spot, her head tilting to the left as she drag her nails down my back, a gasp leaving her lips.

I nibbled on her sensitive skin, earning a moan from her. My hand traveled from her hip, roaming to her covered breast.

"Baby," She moaned, my hand kneading them over the thin cloth. Her back ached off the sheets, me dipping under her shirt to grope her bare skin. She bit het lip, brushing her leg against mine

I felt her sneak her hands under the band of my joggers, pushing them down slightly. I stopped my actions, taking the hint.

"Do you really wanna do this? We don't need to rush or anything" I asked

"Mia!" Mrs. Jackson yelled

"Shit" I stood up pulling my shirt over my head

Mia rolled her eyes "Why are you panicking like this?" She mumbled before she walked to the door

Shit. How awkward would it be if she got in while we were doing it

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