If Only She Knew

Chapter 53: heartache

Heartache

[hahrt-eyk]
noun
1. emotional pain or distress; sorrow; grief; anguish.

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Mia's Point Of View

One week later

"Its not like I wanted that to happen just stop bringing it up Emma" i spat

I heard shuffling in the background before she spoke again "I'm just saying! Get your ass back home and fix this cuz you're better than that"

"Fuck you mean? I'm calling him texting him and shit he ain't even picking up how am I supposed to feel? it's just fucking clear that he don't want this relationship no more" i said angrily at the fact that my best friend was on Ethan's side instead of mine and she thinks it's actually my fault this happened

"Just stop you're being so pathetic right now" she spat "you never even deserved Ethan and im so glad this so called relationship is over"

"What?"

"I hope he finds someone better ASAP" she mumbled

I squeezed the phone tighter in my hand "I can't believe I trusted you enough to let you be my friend" I said hanging up

I groaned throwing my phone at the nearest wall and broke down tears rolling down my face

This week I've been feeling miserable as hell, Ethan was on my mind 24/7 but each time I'd feel like crying about what happened Jake would remind me of how unhappy i was in the past couple of months which led me to feel a bit better but as you can tell Emma wasn't too happy at the fact that Ethan and i were breaking up so was his friends, especially Chris, I stayed an extra week in Italy, I love this place i didn't want to go back to New York I hate to admit this but I didn't want to face Ethan Dre Jones just yet, I haven't heard from him ever since the fight his friend refused to tell me anything about him and i was slowly losing my mind.

Today Jake and i are going back home, I wasn't ready hell I never will be but I can't face my problems like this I have to actually deal with them not just escape them or at least try to do so.

Both Jake and i were now sitting in the plane i closed my eyes and leant my head on top of Jake's shoulder I sighed slowly "sleep Melia"

"To be honest I don't wanna go back to New York. I'd rather go to another place"

"Where?"

"Pari"

He groaned "You need to go back home Mimi is gonna be pissed at you"

"She's always mad at me but you're right I should come back i got a fashion show in London in a couple of days and I have to do the Calvin Klein photoshoot after that and I gotta finish my new designs and album" I huffed before letting a soft moan slip through my lips "I wish I could disappear"

"You've always hated being under pressure" he sighed

I nodded my head "I hate it so much"

"Just relax for now. Close your eyes and sleep"

I nodded closing my eyes

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After landing, Jake suggested that we should hang out at my place but first we stopped by his place, he dropped his suitcase and changed into something comfortable and came back to the car

"Is that a gun?" I asked lifting his shirt "Jake!"

"Chill Melia it's for my own safety" he replied