My Life's Pleasures

When A Heart Breaks.

It seems as though everything’s at stake

THE MEMORIES OF US I CAN NO LONGER TAKE

As they replay in my head frame by frame

The feelings they bring now aren’t the same

I LIVE WITH THIS DAY BY DAY

Wishing that for one moment they would go away

LYING AWAKE AT NIGHT WRACKED WITH regret and sorrow

KNOWING I CAN’T FACE ANOTHER TOMORROW

Thinking of all the times I could’ve said

I LOVE YOU ONCE MORE

Would this place I’m in been in store?

YOU LEFT ME BY MYSELF, AFTER YEARS OF WORK AND PAIN

I NOW Feel used and useless

From this I cant hide the shame

WRITING SEEMS TO HELP

When it seems I have nothing else

I CAN ESCAPE FROM THE PAIN YOU GAVE TO ME

Write out my thoughts and set them free

I NO LONGER FEEL THE NEED TO GRIEVE

A relationship is a tedious thing

They aren’t always meant to be

It’s sometimes a game people play

WHETHER OR NOT LOVE EXISTS OR NOT I CANNOT SAY

It seems as though people always stray

Away from where they’re supposed to stay

I lose faith in feelings

It seems like all I did was make mistakes

I called for too many short breaks

BUT I NEVER STOPPED LOVING EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM

I DID EVERYTHING AND MORE FOR HIM

But I guess it wasn’t enough

But I’ll stay tough

No matter how rough things may get

I CAN’T SIT BY AND WAIT ON A BET

I HAVE TO GET UP AND CLEAR MY HEAD

I can’t listen to something said

I’LL HAVE MY MOMENTS OF BREAKDOWN

Where I see everything destroyed

No hope all around

BUT THERES ALWAYS THAT TIME

WHERE I’LL ACTUALLY BE FINE

My weaker moments illustrate permanent scars

Where I bleed until I see stars

I’ll walk down the road staring at cars

My feet itching to walk my body to them

It would ACCOMPLISH THE END OF MY LIFE

WIHTOUT using THIS knife

I LIVE ON A ROLL OF THE DICE

Of sorrowed love and bitter tales

OF MY LIFE’S EVENTS THAT HAVE SET SAIL

THESE eyes OF MINE have since PALED