My Life's Pleasures

Failed Attempt.

I tried to love you.

I tried to be with you.

I tried to stay true.

I tried everything.

Just for you.

I knew once you walked away,

It'd be the end of us one day,

But I'll say it's okay,

Because I'll always hold you close to my heart,

Since it was you who was my love from the start.

You'll always be in my heart.

I'll always be here for you.

I'm forever yours.

In this diary of hell. 

I tear out these pages full of memories. 

Whispers of words once lively entities. 

Missing you with everything that I am.

Wishing you were here, holding my hand. 

I sit back and breathe, with my face against the wind.

My mind never at ease, but I'll always let you win.

Some say it a sin, but to me it's how I cope.

You're friendship, for my life, gives me some sort of hope.

I'll die a traitor to humanity.

I'll die poisoned by your love.